Hide and Seek

Dead or alive

2010-11-18T23:34:00.003+08:00

I'm back O:
Too much's been going on. Too much. Tooooooo much.
I haven't touched this place is like. Woah. Decades?...

Anyway. I really have no inspiration to blog...
I mean, this blog used to be... per say... my life?
Now it's just some place I go to just to let time fly.
Not like it needs any of MY help flying...
I'll be sec 3 in just over a month...
Isn't that amazing? Wasn't it just yesterday that it was
the first day in school that I was in a room full of strangers
and sitting beside Wee-Lin? Sigh... How time flies.

Anywayyy. I dont think 'll be posting anytime soon.
FACEBOOK's where 'm at now.
My life revolves around facebook I think. Seriously.
So add me if you wanna check out pictures or anything (:
All of them should be there.

If for some reason you're still reading this place.
*shakes your hand* Thanks.

Love,
Zenda.

Mr. Brightside

2010-08-03T20:00:00.007+08:00

Long overdue pictures firstly:

Van and I scouting through the whole of Orchard
after I came back from Australia.

Van and her unreachable dream of being as tall as the
giraffe. Tsk tsk tsk. Crushed hopes HOR...

Psst... she's molesting the koala... Call the cops...

Last picture.
I know its damnnn retarded but I laughed like a mad cow
after I saw it. Its so ridiculously comedic, honestly T.T

I think we went to every single shopping centre in Orchard.
I'm not kidding. We walked THAT much...
It's crazyyy. She was looking for a dress for her cousin's
wedding so we just searched everywhereee. Finally found one
in Far East Plaza.

Anyway basically to summarise it, it was an extremely longggg
day with lotssss of walking around, but it was fun lah. Lol. (:...

*

I feel weird typing out happy faces now.
It'll give you the impression that I'm smiling, when I'm really not.
Look here. It's a handwritten letter... typing it out for you. >

"Dear Coach/ PE teacher in charge

(Stamp:
Singapore Sports Medicine Centre.
Square 2 - Novena Medical Centre.
Blahblahblah, my name and ID, allergy)

Zenda suffered [L] Tibalis Poste... (something.) strain.
Currently on physiotherapy.
Kindly excuse lower limb activities
for 1 month.
Regards
(Signature)

(Stamp:
Dr Kelvin Chew Tai Loon
MBBCh.. blahblahblah)"

I have 3 copies of that.
One for each meal of the day where I shall stare at it
with hatred, hoping somehow I get laser eyes and I'll be able
to burn it to shreds...

I can't exactly... explain how I feel now but it's mostly
guilt and... anger and... just the pure urge to cry...

My mum'd scolded me for it. I didn't talk for half the day...
Dude, I was... bummed is just too light a word for it.
This thing with my calf has been
going on off for 2 weeks now and I'd already been to a doctor
but it wasn't one who specialised in sport injuries....
Just a regular polyclinic doctor.
Yesterday... Sigh. Yesterday.
Anyway main point is that I strained it.. again... and had to
go find a Sports doctor... My mum did...
Made an appointment for 5.30 and the medical centre...

After going to see the DL investiture and studying a while with
Van in the canteen, I left and took the MRT by myself to Novena...
1 hour ride alone... Sitting there... Wondering...
Reached there and Mum seemed to be in a really light mood...
Registered and waited.

I was... greatly intimidated and very scared. Very very scared.
The whole place was just purely for sports... They had treadmills
and gym equipments, plus the medical centre plus an orthopedic surgery
centre all on one level.
Anyway. The fear was just me... the place didn't really give you anything
to be scared of besides the hospital-y scent.
It was a calming place, lots of browns, beige, whites and blues, and
they had LCD's hung up everywhere with Ellen/ Channel 8 on.

My mum let me go in by myself after waiting for 15 minutes...
The room was... big... Just me, the doctor and his assistant.
Yes his assistant.
He was really friendly and all... He isn't paid so much to frown anyway...
Told him about my pain, then I had to take off my shoes and sit on the
examination bed. He poked around my leg, down my ankle and the to my calf
and just asked me when it was pain. The cool part is that he used the
thing they use to see the baby when a woman's pregnant on my leg.
The same light blue translucent gel that's really cold, same screen and same
x-ray equipment.

He told me what was the problem and said that I couldn't/shouldn't
do lower body trainings for the next... month. And then he winced.
I winced too. ._.
He knew. He knew how his patient would feel. He'd probably said it
to thousands of kids with the same problem as me. but that didn't
make me feel any better :/ Sulkkkk....

I got my MCs and the weird cushion-y thing to put in my shoe
to help me walk better...
Had dinner with my mum downstairs at secret recipe...
She's in a good mood today... but that just makes me feel worse...
I feel really apologetic towards her... I bombed money on this man...
It wouldn't have been this way if I just took care of myself more...
I wouldn't have to miss 1 month of training if I'd just bothered to care...

I won't be on the school team.
That I'm sure of. Crushed me when I thought of it.
buttt... I don't know what's the but in this.
Wan Ting thinks the same of herself T.T... so she said next year
we can both facilitate the aspire camps while they're having the
zonals T.T... Lol... Maybe that's the bright side?
and.. I have one more year to chiong. Chiong all the way.
That's another bright side?
): Someone lend me a shoulder... or a hug...
I don't mind either now if you need it cos I'd just sulk with you...

Gah.
Agh.
ROAR.
I feel kind of emotionless now.
I wish something really funny would just happen right now.
I want to laugh. I want to laughhhh....

Zenda...

Till it hurts

2010-07-29T19:35:00.000+08:00

We don't always hear the things we expect to hear...

but sometimes it's the things we don't want to hear
that tell us more about ourselves than we could ever find out alone.

I'm excited. Yeap. I'm excited.
Van should know why.
>>>

Last period was art (Side-note: If you guys know me well enough,
you'd know I'm planning on going for the art stream next year.
And you'd also know I'm 1 in probably only... 3 or less students who
want to do it in the whole level.)

So we're doing vanishing point for art now.
Writing our names. It's graded.
I find it fun lah, yea. I guess that's the most important part for me.
My "n" looked kind of weird but other than that I'm pretty happy
with mine.

Anyway after that, only like... 5 of us were left touching up on our
work, we handed it up and said bye to Mr Tan, then he suddenly came out
of the artroom while we were getting our bags and told me
(in summary) that he wanted me to go to the SYF visual arts exhibition
with a few other students on 19th August. O:... Happy? Yes.
PLUS. He already knows I'm going for art next year :D and told van and I
about the SYF happening when I'm sec 4 so yea, the timing's really kind of
perfect if we don't all die in 2012.

I asked him "What about this year leh?
Any of our school students in SYF?"
His reply, "Mm.. No this year no one from our school, we didn't touch it
at all. So maybe by the time you're Sec 4 you'll be the one luh."

!
Got a new goal now. Enter visual arts SYF in the year 2012.
Don't care if I die after that. If I do get a prize...
Hohoho could do me wonders after Secondary School...

Happyyy...

Lol. We'll see. We'll see.

*

LOL... If you can find the humour in this... Lol...

Anyway... Tomorrow might need to serve
detention... F... :/
I do not have good memories of detention..
Has been a year since I went okay... I'm a good girl...
Mostly...
It's boring and quiet and they torture you inside there.
Kind of. :/

Tomorrow's Friday already.
CHIONG. Weekends. Almost there.

Love,
Zenda.

Drama Mama

2010-07-24T23:48:00.005+08:00

Anyone sweet enough to get me a blue polaroid? (:

I finally remember how cool polaroids are.
It's okay! I'll get one for myself next time. It's the first
material thing that I want besides a new phone, so yeah...

Today woke up around 10.

At 2.30, cabbed with bro to ACJC for HSM junior,
the musical, put up by my primary school.
Ah, I remember when I was in a musical...
2006. Primary 4. Holy Moses.
I felt so great on stage... It was an awesome feeling.
I get such a thrill when I'm up on stage... whether it was
performing or receiving a prize, to just graduating from the prefectorial board.
It really felt great... I wonder why I don't do it anymore.
It's something that I love, why don't I do it anymore?

Anyway. HSM junior was... interesting.
I mean, my bro being there just made everything retarded.
When I'm with him I just go nutso, so yea. Mum performed...
She was Miss. Darbus. :/ Both of us were like whacking our heads when
she came out...

Bro: "I can't believe it... I'm actually, EMBARRASSED, for her..."
Me: "Why is that so hard to believe? :D"

My mum's such a drama queen. She just over-does everything.
It just HAS to be made humorous and exaggerated.
LOL. It's entertaining nonetheless.

I've gotta say though, DLS's musicals are getting more and more
disappointing.. I mean. It's not my standard rising. I know that.
The first musical we'd ever had was "Joseph's Magic Techni-Coloured Dream Coat"
and that an unbelievable success. The lead actor was a P6
guy, gorgeous, tall, and had a great voice. I remember being in
the staff lounge where the choir teacher would be practicing with him
before the musical. I'd sit there doing my work while my mum was
in class, and he'd sing. I'd just be like... in awe.

The whole musical back then was fantastic. The MC's were my teachers.
(Mr cheng - my funny discipline master, and Mrs Luana Goh - a beautiful, sweet teacher).
It was in my school hall but they seriously did everything up really
well. There were the hand chairs in the front for the G.O.H's,
(those couches in the shape of palms :D) and then the
other chair lined up all the way to the back of the hall.
Singing, acting, everything was great.

but NOW...

They booked a really small auditorium in ACJC that was crammed
and had a really really small stage. The lighting was just basically
spotlights alone, the MC's were 3 small girls. Troy Bolton was played
by this guy who's height is about up to my chest, and the whole play
was just changed totally from the original storyline of HSM.
I mean... okay yeah I get that they want to involve more students,
thus the student MC's, and yeah I get that they're trying to make it a more
comfortable experience for the audience, thus the air-conditioned auditorium,
but we don't need all that right? It was just FINE back when they did
the 1st ever musical. It was so much more ORIGINAL and ENTERTAINING.
It was bright and colourful, the students were just as equally involved,
yet the show was well put-up and impressive.

Even the booths set up outside were small and had limited
things on sale...

Anyway... I think they actors and actresses really DID put in quite
a lot of effort in performing everything. So applause applause for that (:
I really don't mean to sound like a critic but that's just how I honestly feel.

and watching the musical... I really miss being on stage.
It was just a great feeling being a part of that production.
The applause you get afterwards, and the feeling of hours of
time in the AVA room and music room, practicing your songs, paying off.
and the amount of time spent in the school hall on stage after
schoolhours just practicing your lines, then finally going to the actual
venue and doing a full-dressed rehersal. Then seeing the place filling up,
and performing in front of your family and friends...
and friends of your family..
and family of your friends..
It really is a great feeling... Got me wanting to do it again.
Maybe I will.. I really don't know.. If I do I hope I'd be able to make
people proud, and feel the way I felt last time.

*

It's late already...
I'm not really tired at all but I'm going to
hit the sack in a while.

Gonna spam call somebody at 11.33 in the morning.
Just in case that person is already dead.

Hope you guys have a great Sunday ahead of you.

Love you all,
Zenda.

It flies? It FLIES!

2010-07-23T15:53:00.042+08:00

Has it really, REALLY been a month since I blogged?...
I can't believe it. Is it possible to feel like so many things've
happened AND feel that time's slipping through my fingers?

Anyway. I'm BACK. I'm back i'm back i'm back. And if you're
actually reading, you're up for a long long photo spammed post
ahead about my trip to Australia in June. THEN I'll bore
you with what's been happening (:

*

It was a saturday night when my bro and I took a bloody
1 hour+ trip on the train, standing, to Changi.
Had my luggage packed with everything in place. (:
Reached the airport and headed to Burger King for a meal, then
waited for my Dad to come.

Once he came, all 3 of us went through customs and got our passports
checked my scary large people. After we got in, it was basically half
an hour of free-and-easy time.
SO. We headed to Hard Rock cafe :D

Retarded. I had a cosmopolitan which is apparently a lady's drink.
It tastes like 7-up Raspberry with a burning bitter after-taste.
I forgot what my bro's drink was but it tasted like slurpee (:
Funny, I felt like an adult with all the rock MV's playing on the
LCD's, all the guitar's hung up on the walls and an alcoholic drink
in my hand. Muahaha.

Those're my main pair of shoes for the whole trip (:
Camper. Same brand as the other shoe I brought along.
The other shoe has lasted me for 2 years already so I TRUST CAMPER! (:
And their designs aren't half bad either.

Texted and called some people for last goodbyes before
I left. I WAS SAD ): REALLY SAD. Heart was breaking.
It was more of a longing feeling to see them one last time before
I left and then the disappointment of knowing I couldn't?
Either way, I boarded the plane. 8 hours flight baby.

DAY 1:

I was so damn bloody excited (: I mean...
The presence of Australian's with their blue eyes and naturally
big physique, not forgetting their accents, just gave me a thrill.
I really couldn't come to terms with the fact that I'd left Singapore
and was now in a place filled with no less than gorgeous people.

That's a glimpse of how I started getting excited about
everything.

Just took me a while to absorb everything.
The people especially. They were all so friendly. (:
Unlike most of the people we see working at Macs in Singapore ._.
"What do you want. Upsize?... Eating here? Please pay (enter amount here)"
but not in Australia. Ohhhh no. Not there.
They were all smiles and jokes and warm hugs and giving away free alcohol to kids.
Not really. but they were really friendly.

The weather was rather unexpected.
I mean.. I knew it was going to be cold. but when I think of cold
I think of like.. switching on the air-con.
Their kind of cold wasn't that kind of cold.
There was stillness. And the minute I stepped out
of the airport doors I just felt the most soothing feeling.
I don't really know how to explain it... It's like you can feel
the warmth of the sun on your skin yet still feel the cold air.
It really was a beautiful day (:

Anyway, my bro got coffee once we got our luggages,
then we headed out to meet the rest of the group
+ our tour guide.

LIMO. Small, but a limo nonetheless.

First bus stop I see.
33 (:

Yeap so basically our first stop was a park nearby. It was
right across the Opera House and it was the first time I saw
sparkly water. You see it on television and stuff, and you
may think you see it sometimes in Singapore,
but this was just completely mesmerizing. (:

:D

Yeah.. that's my brother for you.
According to him, it's his way of proving he's been to the opera
house.

Sitting on a grass patch.
Cool thing about this park that seriously made me laugh
was the signs all around the area. In Singapore it's like..
"Please do not step on the grass." and "No littering, Fine $500."
but in Australia it's "Welcome to our park! Feel free to around
the area and be one with nature! You're welcome to hug the
trees as well!"
I'm serious. They want you to hug the trees.

Another thing that just left me in awe was the
architectural beauty over there. Seriously. All of their
buildings, from shopping centres to museums to appartments,
most of the ones I saw look like the picture above.
They are GORGEOUS. Really amazingly built luh...

Lunch at a chinese restaurant.
I still don't get it. I didn't go to Australia to eat Chinese food.
If I wanted that, I would've gone to China. Or just stayed in Singapore. ._.

And apparently in Australia, all chinese people eat rice from
a metal pot, and have corn soup as appetizers. WHERE do these
people get their information from?

oh. ohoh... ohohohoh...
Look.

:D HOT. GUY.
Bloody... I swear okay, my brother took this picture, but
he was like "Zen, look, look, LOOK!"
and I looked. I stared. and I started drooling.
He was sooooooo... sooooooo... you know... like... sooooo...
*whacks head*. I have no idea when I became such a girl...
probably when I saw something like THAT ^.

Next, we visited their version of "Underwater world".
Except much better. LOL.

I was like.. starring at this stingray for God knows how long.
It was humongous! LIKE. HUGEEE. I'd probably look like
japanese maki filling if you wrapped it around me.

and this turtle too. It's like.. the length of a super-single sized bed.
I'm serious. And it's wider than a super single-sized bed.

That's... i have no idea. The head of something that's been
rammed by a car.

My bro with a stuffed walrus.
You know, sometimes I wonder how we're even related..
and then I do something stupid too. Then I remember.

We visited the Sydney tower next. It was I think....
50 stories high yea.

Crocodile, Kangaroo and Emu Jerkey.
I don't know why eating BEEF Jerkey is fine, and then it comes
to these weird ones, and I feel my lunch coming up my throat.

My bro and I sitting by the windows of the place. The view
was amazing (:

After that it was a 15 minutes ride on the bus to the
Opera house. (: I think they'd just finished a concert
cos there were tons of kids and teenagers coming out with
their instrument bags in hand.

Didn't manage to go inside though.
My bro says esplanade can go screw itself cos
the Opera house is so much better. LOL.

I'd never really seen a sunset like that. In Singapore
it seems as though everything's being covered by tall buildings.
Here it was just... the chilly weather. I stood by the balcony where
there was a cafe downstairs with this awesome band singing.
Oh my gosh the lead singer took my breath away.
He was wearing a trench coat and these sunglasses that hung
at the tip of his nose, taking swigs of beer when the bassist was
doing his thing. Really... why don't we have that in Singapore?
I mean.. we probably do. Somewhere. but where?
This was just a regular cafe and buskers there were wayyy talented too.

Night grew and we headed to our Hotel finally.
FINALLY checked in. I felt really tired after the whole day out.

Showering felt awesome. The hotel's shampoo makes your
hair really smooth (: just a random note.
Stayed at Metro Central.
After got my real coat out that kept me a lot warmer,
3 of us headed out to scout around for supper.

Yes. Even their slurpees are better. ._.

That's not for decoration or effect.
It really was a break in. Super cool door though.

...
unfortunately I'm underaged and they have security.
...

Went to a supermarket over there to check out how it looked like.

THEN.
*Build-up music*
we went to macs. WHY that's such a big deal is because...
Their macs was like.. soooooooo beautiful.
AND AND AND. THEY HAD CARAMEL SUNDAES.
FORGET STRAWBERRY AND CHOCOLATE,
CARAMEL. DUDE. CARAMEL...
I know I'm making a big fuss over it but. I had at least 1
everyday i was there. AT LEAST. And my dad was obsessed
with it. AND HE DOESNT EVEN LIKE DESSERTS. Let alone...
ice-cream. Big deal. BIG. deal.

My love. I miss you so.

Their drinks, not ice lemon tea or coke.
Fanta Ice-blended. (:

Mighty angus. My brother just made satisfying groans
throughout finishing this. It was really really good.

THERE! That's macs for you in Australia.

& since I only had my caramel sundae :D, Dad got me
pizza. 6 slices, 3 different flavours, 9 bucks (:

DAY 2:

Breakfast next morning.
It was a buffet, but I guess my favourite dish would be
their french toast (: It's just bread, dipped in egg mix and
fried. It's sweet, especially when you put maple syrup on top.
Yea, that was the best for me (:

Streets of Australia in the morning.

We were heading to a "Garden" next, and it was about 3 hours
on the bus so we had a little break at the nearby
"petrol kiosk" (for buses and trucks). I got to see real life truckers!
My gosh... all of them look the same. Their so cool. LOL.
They had a special cafe for truckers ONLY.
The sign said "Only truckers allowed". Its like... if you're not
a trucker and you go in, all of them are gonna tackle you and beat
you half dead.

THIS is another caramel sundae.
Told you, at LEAST once a day.
But special thing about sundaes at macs there:
You can choose between 2 sizes (:
Small and Large, so this is the large. It basically
has tons more toppings at the bottom. That's ironic.
BUT YUMMY ALL THE SAME (: So sinful...

Me and bro basking in the pleasure of caramel sundaes (:

THOSE are what I call real police officers.
Or at least they looked like it.
They ACTUALLY DO buy donuts and coffee. LOL (:

We eventually reached the "Garden".
The reason for the inverted commas is cos this garden
consisted of like... 20 other smaller gardens it.
One of which was my personal favourite, "Storybook Garden".

My brother said he needed at least one shot with
the cutesy sign. HAHAHA... Failure.

First time I actually saw a real life lemon tree (:
Their so adorable. I felt like plucking them. but I didn't, don't worry.

The only thing I bought from the Giftstore there was ROCKY ROAD (:

They're mushed up marshmallows in a hard chocolate covering
with almonds. Sweeeeet (:

Next up was the winery.

The place was just a giant piece of land, and if everyone
kept quiet, you'd actually be able to hear the silence of nothingness.
It was completely peaceful and silent.

The old grape mushing machine.

My bro and Dad were more into the wine tasting
so I just went around snapping more shots.

I stole the cheese for fun though it's supposed to be sampled
with the wine (: It's good cheese.

Bro bought 2 bottles from there.
After that, we checked into another place which was
Oaks pacific Blue Resort (:

DAY 3:

Breakfast there was cool (:
They served it plate by plate, 2 sausages, 2 pieces of streaky bacon,
a egg cooked sunny-side up, and half a cooked tomato.
You could toast your own bread and they had a wide variety
of bread-spread packets also like, peanut butter, honey, tons of jams..

Yeah the outside of the resort was just a lake-like swimming
pool. Really really huge.

After breakfast we headed to the beach area which was
close to a sand dune :D

4-wheel drive to our sand slide.

The instructor telling us how to get down the sand slide without dying.

We were given a board and had to sit on it, feet pointed up to the sky
and hands had to be behind you at all times, and must be grabbing
into the sand. Because it just rained, the sand wasn't wet but it was
freezing cold so I left the place with numb, sandy hands.

YEAH. Victory pose. The slide was about 2 stories high.
Not too bad but still gave you a thrill sliding down, especially
the gaining of speed halfway through.

Yeap went to the beach next. It was a gorgeous sight.
Great great cooling weather. Windy. REALLY windy (:

Hair flying all over. Told you it was windy!
Guys... they got it good in situations like this.

We went to their version of Holland Village next. (:

Went to the bottle shop to get some drinks.
Muahaha.

Don't get yourself in a knot, mine was only 4% and it
was a grapefruit breezer. Unlike my dad. Cold, hard beer.
Up till now I have no idea how people enjoy that.

Walked up to the dock next, about to go on a
Dolphin watch.

This was when the boat was still stationary.
We got ourselves onto the top deck and sat at the front of the boat.

I was shivering. Lol. You really, REALLY would find it hard
to open your eyes too cos the wind was so so strong and it was
crazily cold.

Seagulls circling round the top of the boat the whole time.

And there you go (: We saw the dolphins.
They're so pretty.

That's my brother's wind breaker flying...
The wind really was strong.

DAY 4:

a.k.a. The day we get to plan our own activities.
"TO THE ZOO!" My dad says.

Train-ed to the ferry area.
Their trains are so cool, it's double deckered (:

Once we got our ferry tickets to the zoo, we
boarded it and settled into our seats.

Australian babies are so adorable.
I just love it when they speak with that accent..

Passed the opera house again. (:

OHOH. Snake eating rat.
First time I got to see it live and not on Discovery Channel.
If my memory doesn't fail me, I found out from Discovery Channel
that snakes dislocate their jaws to fit their meal in their mouth and then
they push it down whole, and then digest. If I tried to do that
I'd end up not being able to close my mouth AND puking everything out.
Applause for snakes.

Mountain goats. Saw how they climbed up those
steep rocks, really cool.

And nothing like a cup of hot chocolate to warm your
freezing body up.

Kangaroos (:
Went into this caged area with a long path that has no
barriers between us and the kangaroos (:
Got to see them close-up. Sad that I didn't manage to
catch sight of their pouches ): I've always wanted to see them.

Sleeping Koala. THEIR SO CUTE MY GOSH (:

After that we ferried back and had lunch in an Italian Restaurant.

That's my meal (: Yummyyyy beyond reason.
especially their caesar salad. The sauce was extra thick and creamy.

Reached back the hotel at around 5pm, then right opposite our hotel
was Broadway. I was amazed, seriously.
And what are the odds, that they were showing WICKED the musical :D!
It was the LAST show and LAST country they were performing in.
SERIOUSLY. WHAT ARE THE ODDS?!
Its crazy amazing. My dad got my bro and I tickets. He isn't one for
Musicals so he went to the bar for the night. AS USUAL.

Broadway... Oh my gosh I couldn't believe it...
Seriously I'm sucha lucky girl (:
I got to go to Broadway... and it was a mind-blowing
performance. Standing ovation at the end to the 2 lead
actresses man. Their voices are just amazing and they are
crazy talented people. I can't express how much I loved it (:

Got their hoodie too!

YEA :D

My bro's jealous face. Failed. LOL.
Cos I bought the hoodie. Muahahaha. The size I was wearing is S..
Like seriously. It's huge.
but i loveeeee it.

Yeap. Last night in Australia.
Packed everything.

Snacks I got.
By the way the marshmallows over there.
BEST I've ever tasted. They are super soft and super duper creamy.

Slurpee (: It's about 2 times the size of my hand.

Next day headed back home
and what I posted was probably just a brief summary of everything.
I really think Australia's a great country.
Throughout the whole post was saying how Australia's better than SG
in so many aspects but really, I feel so much more at home in SG.
I can't imagine myself living in Australia.. I'd feel out of place.
I mean.. sure SG lags behind in some places but I guess this is really
where I belong luh. There's no other home for me.
LOL.

*

So school's been fine lah...
Basically just studying, training, slacking around.
Finally got the 2.4 off my chest.
15.08 (: I'm quite happy with my timing though still
could've pushed myself to do better.

Ohoh! Jordan came over on one of the Sunday's that
I didn't go out with my Dad. Met him at 10.30 at the MRT
station. My bro decided to tag along. Probably just to make
fun of me or something...
So awkward luh... LOL... my bro was being such an ass.
Anyway. He came over, we watched a movie, then
just started on homework all the way till 5, then he had
dinner with me and my mum. HA. HAHAHA. HAHA.
Yeah... He eats damn fast. Seriously. Even my mum said so.
I wasn't even done with half my rice and he'd finished everything ._.
Crazy.
And that stupid boy didn't eat his lunch. Stupid boy.
Yea my mum then drove him to JE library to meet his mum lah.
Had a good time that day (:

Also... today sucked like bleh. ):
Got an sms from my mum to call her after that period
so after recess, went to call her.
She had to stay out late tonight in school cos of Musical rehearsals
so she said the only time out of the whole weekend she could bring
me to see a doctor was immediately after school at around 3.30.
I said "I have training" like so many damn times... and she just like. ._.
Anyway.. it's not her fault.
My calf muscle's been working up since last friday and it still kinda hurts.
... went to see doctor in the end anyway...
Doc says I had skeletal muscle cramps :/ so the lump of muscle that
keeps appearing on the side of my calf is nothing out of the ordinary.
He said it would've healed faster if I didn't attempt to train on wed. :/ Fine
I'm stupid and stubborn okay. I didn't think...
but yea. I just have to relax this weekend ._. and I'll be able to train
by next week. Yeah so that was that. It kind of ruined my day but 'm fine now
I guess...

There's a BBQ tomorrow at yan ying's place actually but I can't go.
._. Have to head over to ACJC with my bro cos Mum's got a musical
performance with my pri school. SIGH.
High School Musical Junior. Where do these ideas come from :/
yeap so that's my whole weekend wasted.

Yeap. So. Hope you guys enjoyed my post.
Or not. Either way. (:
I spent like... 4 hours just posting up all the damn pictures
and typing everything out. Well.. I haven't blogged in a month
so I guess that's that. Lol.
Anyway.. Enjoy your weekend you guys (:
Make the best out of it. It won't come for another week.

Love,
Zenda.

Guess who's back...

2010-06-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

to my extremely dead blog.
Hi corpses (:
Back from Australia. I have like.. 3000 pictures
to post up.. O:.. how the heck..
but not now.

I'm going to post a fantastically boring post today...

I wonder... Just a thought...

We've all watched those movies...
The character's loved one is in his/her hands,
they're both on the floor, the loved one bleeding and
spurting guts... the character bawling, begging him not
to die...

I always imagined.. if that happened to me..
what would be going through my mind..
My brother once told me that humans live on drama
like cars run on fuel...
Would we automatically remember those scenes and
just play them out? Would it be like.. impossible to
express our own emotions and do the things we feel like
doing just cos we'd been shown, sorta like.. HOW we should
react to a situation like that?
That would suck wouldn't it..
I mean like.. we would be at a loss at how we should react
cos we wouldn't know whether it was influenced or that's
how we really felt :/...
I mean..
just a thought...

Zenda

Down under

2010-06-18T20:48:00.003+08:00

'm leaving till the 24th, next Thursday.
Going to see kangaroos and visit wineries. (:

I'll miss all of you guys a lottttttttttttttt ):
but! when I'm back, you won't realize I left.
Thanks so much for your wishes everyone :D
I'll miss you guys tonssss.

anyhoooooo...
I have no mood for anymore goodbyes.
So painful. Lol.
so. I'll end of here.
Take care everyone. (: Love yaaaa!

Zenda.

Since no one's looking...

2010-06-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

I guess I can write whatever the heck I want. (:
BOO.
... I know that didn't scare you... Don't brag...

TODAY... went to the library with Van & Jordan. (:
I was the first one there! FINALLY. Arrived at... 9.40,
20 minutes before the library even opened. Was...
sort of... drenched... kinda... sorta...
I left my umbrella in the library the previous day...
so had to walk to the MRT in the rain,
and from the MRT, walk to the library in a drizzle.

Van came next, then got a seat by our favourite window.
Did the script for 2A1 assembly presentation...
I hope it's not too cliche.... There's nothing much I can think
of that'll make it surprisingly unique...

Jordan came a bittttttttttttt... later. LOL...
The sky was pretty dark... It was like... 10.30 in the morn
and it looked like 6.30 in the evening. Cool though..
I really like the sky like that.. (:

Van... stress... LOL... :D

Did quiteee a bit of work. Left with....
Maths... Can die... ):

Slacker. LOL.

Actually.. in the end all of us slacked.
Van gave up on the 1 paragraph chinese letter she
was attempting to write for... an hour...
and just ended up talking for the last hour before
we went off to coffee shop to eat.

ohmygoshhhh and then the thinggggg with my mummmm
and the losttttt umbrellaaaaaaa... Wasted tears on that man...
No more crying for a while. My eyes are sore and dry.
So pointless. I hate it when my mum shouts at me..
I wonder if I'll ever do that if I have a kid...
I wonder if I remember me telling myself at this point..
"If I ever do that... I'll hate myself..."
I wish I wont... :/
I wish I'll never make my kid cry.. :/
but I know it's kinda impossible right... :/
Sighhh...

yesterday, about the same thing also.
Same library, same peeps.

Today had training at Ngee Ann poly. LOL!
7-9 PM baby...
Fun like crazy. but really, REALLLYYYYYLYLYLYLYLY.
Cold.
but fun all the sameeee (:

My day was pretty much spent like that...
I'm heading off to Aus this Sat man... That's in
less than 3 days... Please take care of yourselves while
I'm gone everyone (:

Zenda.

I'm here, heart in my hands...

2010-06-09T22:50:00.005+08:00

'Sha and I before french (:
*

Yay (: Okay so spent La's birthday at WCP with
youth peeps, playing balls games and etcetc.
My group's name was "Cartoon pineapple Tarts".
Sort of too lazy to explain HOW we got there but,
we just did. It's awesome anyway...

Birthday girl standing on top of me. I was literally
lying down taking pics of her.
It was this rectangular net-box. The metal connectors
kinda hurt when you sat on them but was pretty
comfortable after a while. It was a gorgeous day, really.

Anyway, had to have dinner with family so went home
about an hour earlier, then ate with them.
Aft that, spent the night watching my brother play
"Alan Wake"... Seriously it got me afraid of the dark again...
but bloody great storyline (:

The next day went out with Dad and bro to Vivo,
got a overcoat for Australia :D after we ate at this amazing
British Bar cum Diner.

They're Caesar was great (: My bro had it.
I ate the Salmon Salad + Roasted chicken and my
Dad had roasted Angus beef. Both equally yummy.

but...

Hands down.. best dessert I've ever had in my life >>>

I know it looks gross lah. Lack of photography skills...
but this was HEAVENLY... like my gosh, amazing.
Steaming hot brownie with gooey fudge inside, and
in the middle a scoop of ol' vanilla, plus berries on
the side....
Ahhhhhh....

It's been... Hell-iday more than holiday...
So bored... Kinda....
Oh well. a week before I'm off to join
the kangaroos.

Zenda.

Too little too late

2010-06-04T22:41:00.004+08:00

Skippy's.
The besttt & most effective cure to a bad day.

I swear it just... I don't know how to explain it.
It's like heart surgery in progress just by eating
small spoons of it... (:
I love you, whoever invented Skippy's grape stripes :D

In other news...

My bro spent like... an hour an Funan IT just searching
for headphones for me (':. I love them a lottt.
Wish I could just wear them to sleep, but I'm afraid
they'll break. LOL.

ALSO. Jordan's in Australia. Hahahaha.
My hand's been itchy these few days, fumbling with phone.
but it's okay! cos I've been busy these few days.
I'm going Aus tooooooo (: On the 19th to the 24th with
my Dad + Bro. Excited much? :D
15 more days darn it...

Yesterday went to Bella's condo after French and after
Jordan left, reached around 7+.
Bought 2 mini cakes for Van and Bella. (:
Yuyan, Joanna, Kian Min and Wen Xin were there too.
Just slacked by the BBQ pit at night, ate food
and crapped, listened to music (:
Then we went up to Bella's place to watch a movie
before I headed home and fell dead on my bed.

Today went to collect Bella + Van's present early in
the morn so ALMOST didn't go to school. Hahaha.
In the end I just dumped prezzies in mum's car and
asked her to drive me to school. Was late by like 1/2 an hour,
but who cares. Not official school day anyhoo.

We did quite a bit of work today, and it was really fun.
Went out to by masking tape + Red spray paint with
HL and bella. Did a bit of spraying and taping and got
my hands all reddd cos I went all natural without a brush (:

My hair is not dyed ah... I know a lot of you think so...
You're thinking wrong... T.T

Anyway, quite fun today yea. It's Vanes' birthday
today so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAN (:
Love ya loads loads loads my dear husband.
Thank you for lending me your shoulder.
Thanks for thinking about stuff with me
and for putting up with me. I really love you a lot.
Don't be sad kay? I'll be here if you need me (:

and also.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY (in advance) BELLA (:
Same thing to you also, I know you've
got a lot on your plate, but don't be so frustrated
cos you've always got ME. LOL.
LOVE YOU okay? :D

It's the hols already, got quite a lot to do.
Procrastinating... Homework... LOL...

Kay... It's kinda late. but I'll still
go play bejeweled. Happy hols everyone.
And sorry for not updating for so long.
p/s, there's only a shoulder for you,
may not be big enough, but it'll be there when you need it.
Don't frown, readers, be happy. (:

Zenda

Tag replies:

Sha: LOL... So long ago, but yeah. (:

Nice: hahaha.. yeah, they do.

Vernice: Thanks.

Vanes: POST LE LAH... :D

Natalie: :X
Lol... my boo, my boo, my boooo.

ShanChih: Hahahaha, as always??

WeeNee: HI.

YanYing: thanks, a lot (:

Anonymous: Lol.. I actually really like that song.

Metallic tastes

2010-05-25T18:32:00.003+08:00

I feel sick and tired...
That counts in literal meaning too...
Sick and tired. Of everything.
Of people's bullshit. Of my bullshit.
Can I ever be tired of life without feeling guilty?

I like laughing with my brother.
He makes me feel better. He's a good brother...
Really... He doesn't deserve what he's going through.

As master wu gui says... "One often meets his
destiny on the road he takes to avoid it"...

And master wu gui knows what he's talking about.

Zenda.

You wake up, another year is gone

2010-05-17T23:19:00.005+08:00

Meet Jaz (: My new bed companion along
with Porky and Lyla.
Jaz... Like, jes? but with an A and a Z.
Isn't she just the cutest thing?

She's a clementeen. Just like me!...
LOL...

Went to BK for dinner with 'sha yesterday,
probably tonight also. Maybe go take neos...
LOL... I know i know... Lame... but it's been like,
7 months? more? Come on. It's fun.

Meaning behind the photo... Hahahaha.
Realized that people like touching their hair
when they take pictures. Why? I have no idea.
So... we thought.. Why limit yourself to
just your hair? Touch your nose. Eyebrow.
Lips. Cheek. Ear. Think outside the little box you guys
are in man...

"I am swedish, cos the best sausages come from there."
"Wa piang eh..."
"JIA WA EH SAI LAH!"
LOL... Random... so random, but my stomach hurt
soooo much, I felt like I was losing fat just by laughing.

Training yesterday was... I wouldn't say it was fun.
It wasn't as if we laughed like super loads,
it's just, I didn't feel like crap when I dropped the ball
cos everyone was there for me, encouraging me
and I really appreciate it. (:

Got back all my results already.
I guess the only one that I really don't want to think
about is Maths, yeah.
My mum was like "As long as you passed don't worry so
much lah!" cos she knew how much I was stressing over
my Maths ._.
I got a glimpse of my Art results, A1! Yeah (:
Did pretty okay for most of everything. Effort does pay off,
so gonna put in more effort for Sem 2.

Oh by the way...

I've named that day at Youth, Lolli Day.
Distributed Lolli's to lots of people.
Lolli's are nice. They're round and sweet.
Just like Augustus Gloop after his treatment
at Willy Wonka's Factory.

Had chinese Oral today. Yes, on a bloody Saturday.
I woke up on a bloody saturday.
Wore my uniform on a bloody Saturday.
Went to school on a bloody Saturday.
And now I'm home... on a bloody Saturday.

"Yes you can hold my hand if you want to,
cos i wanna hold yours too"

I miss those old songs. Lyrics. Just lyrics.

"YEAH YEAH, WOAH WOAH!
Well I miss you too.
YEAH YEAH I KNOW!
I know it's kinda late, but happy birthday...

To you."

HAHAHA. (: I miss the times when that song was
still new, I like it more now that it's old now and
it brings back memories.

Sigh. Tomorrow's Dad's birthday.
Bro and I're gonna get him steakkkk :D
Going over to his place. Sigh. My dad's so old.
HAHAHA... Old yet so lame...

Okay okay...
One more week beforeee... JUNE HOLS! :D
Jiayou everyone, we're almost there...

Zenda.

F.U.B.A.R.

2010-05-16T20:16:00.002+08:00

...which stands for F***ed up beyond all recognition.
Ahem... "Pardon my French"...
I haven't cursed here in a long time.
By cursed I mean... the kind of words that would make my
mother's ears bleed.
Probably it just so happens that now's the appropriate
moment to break that streak.
Just for this post, let me do what I want without being
scrutinized over every single detail kay...
This will be a long, wordy post... By long and wordy
I mean your eyes are gonna hurt.

*

My dad gave this to me a, lol, long time ago. Really long.
I know this probably happens to every other girl...
but he used to call me his princess. And it made me feel special.
I've grown out of that.. I mean, the princess part, not the
feeling special part. It's just nice to know that I always have
my Dad's number on my phone when I need him.
He hasn't always been there for me :/ but he's my Dad...
and he's done what he could. Either way, I'm still his kid. :/

I hope.

Went out with Dad and bro today as usual.
We traveled all the way to Raffles City for
Authentic Hainanese Chicken Rice. I'm not saying that
everything else in the store sucked, but, the rice was
freaking amazinggg... I have no idea why that rice seemed
so much more appetizing than everything else I've had the
past week. Whether it was cos I was famished, or maybe
cos it smelt so damn good, whatever the reason, I've
never had better rice. Ever. And I just realized how stupid
that looks after typing it out. Yeah.

After that, or was it before... Anyway, we went to
Peninsula Plaza to check out a tattoo parlor there, then
went to Funan IT to get my Dad's laptop.
Slacked around in Funan for a while, hyped up over
Alienware on Level 3, played around with it and drooled
on their keyboards, then came home.

*

Exams've been over for 2 days or so.
The relief I felt when the TC was like "Alright, put down
your pencils"... My head was throbbing so much with
happiness. You know how I celebrated? DO YOU?
I went home to sleep.
Yeap, no reward better than knocking out for 6 hours
or so in front of the television. It was the best I'd felt
the whole week.
And the tole of stress this week finally crashed down on
me all in one shot. Gosh I needed sleep so badly...

The paper I'm most worried about's Maths I guess...
I'm not even sure I can PASS.
If you guys see me cry when we get back our Maths
paper, it's either tears of joy, or cos I know I'm gonna
come back the next day headless.
SCREW MATHS.
...I was so near to giving up on my
paper. ._. And my results will probably show it.
After exams everyone was going "It was okay lah!"
"Not that hard!" "Very hard meh?!"
I felt like suckerpunching every one of them in the face..
but I didn't of course... I mean.. how weird would that
be... right?...

My whole routine for the week was, sleep at 12,
wake up at 3/4/5, study till 6, go to school, exam,
come home, study, sleep at 12, wake up 3/4/5...
It wasn't a really good plan... I know.
I've got eyebags to prove it.
but it became more of a convenient habit for me,
so just followed through with it the whole time.
Went to Library with Van to study Geog on... Tues?
Crammed for about 8-9 hours straight... brain died...

(currently spamming vulgarities with Van on msn...
LOL..)

Around 4+ bella came to join us.
Next day went with 2 of them + Jordan.
Didn't really study. At all. LOL...
It was lit anyway... Slacked slacked slacked.
Bella came for a while, went for detention, then came back.
LOL...

Plans for June Holiday:
...
...
...

Well... BASICALLY THEY ALL INVOLVE CHILLING.
I don't want to do anything that'll cause me to rip my
hair out and scream insults at everyone.
People coming over, going out with people, going for
trainings, going overseas.
All pretty okay yea...

Sigh. Whatever. 2 more weeks of school.
Feel like giving up when I'm so nearrrrr....
to.... holidayyyy....

Well. Fubar.

Zenda.

It's JaNK

2010-05-07T20:34:00.003+08:00

I want to be someone that makes a difference...
A good difference.
I'm aspiring to be that person.

I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't fall asleep cos I'd miss you babe,
and I don't wanna miss a thing.

*

It's finally Friday, still... there's a tinge
of irony since the last thing I can do is relax.
Full week of exams next week.
5 days straight. 'm dead.
For now... Let's ignore that and
talk about something else. Exams make me
frown. Frowning on a Friday night is not something
you should be doing. So I shan't.

'Sha came over and we did Mummy Day presents! (:
Well.. it's still in progress LAH...

She provided all the glitter sponge-paper sh-tuff
and I just zipped open my pencilcase, that was
all we had but OI, IT WAS NICE KAY...
Probably feel so accomplished cos cutting out
one heart itself is hard enough...

Oh, we had entertainment along with
sore fingers:

I watched this episode like... 5-6 times already...
and I'm still not tired of it.

Finished cutting out "Mummy" (:
It was tiring okay... all the bumps and edges I had to cut
off... LOL...

and yes... I realized there's a "2" missing from
"me" and "woodbridge".
AH... that explains my life itself.

Oh and of course at 4.30... :

:D FRIENDS.

After I showered, we went over to her place,
got all her stuff, she showered, and then went to
Westmall for dinner.
Worst thing is that... Planned to spend the night
out late with her as usual, and 1 phone call from my mum,
there went THAT plan.
So yeah... I came home, studied... a little...
and now i'm here!

*

I'm really too lazy to explain to you all that's happened,
and I bet you've got sh-tuff going on if your life too...
You may have it hard, I know people that's going
through quite a lot now, but hey...
I may not be the best person in this world, but you
can just tell me if you're bummed out.
It feels good to have someone to talk to. I know.
Don't keep it to yourself... cos there're always people
who'll be there for you and listens to you.

Smile people.
There's always something to smile about.
Like...
The sky's especially blue today.
The grass is greener.
My hair's feeling a little obedient than usual.
Someone made me laugh like crazy.
That compliment actually made me feel good...
My handwriting isn't going bonkers, huh.

Just find it...
There's always something...
It's easier to look for something to cry about,
but it doesn't feel as good as smiling.

Zenda.

Tag replies (FINALLY...):

JeeSoo: Haha. (:
Haha... no it's 2.4 :X

HaoLie: Oh... Kay, thanks, corrected (:

WeeNee: HAHAHA. HI. THANKS.

JP: ... Is it THAT fun...

Kim: Hahaha... cannot tell! Internet luh!
Not sure :/ will tell you and keisha once i know (:

Maddie: hahaha... ohhhh... Thanks (:

Pamela: hey.

Natalie: YES! OMG. SO OLD...
It was #1 on chart attack in '06 like... super long.

Jordan: Work hard. You seriously can de.
Don't give up on yourself like that.

Rachelle: hahaha, kay.

Bella: LOL!... T.T

Cheryl: Haha yeah. Quite old already.
Canon E05 40D.

Jesline: i've been fine, thanks (:

Just a bunch of idiots

2010-05-01T15:28:00.013+08:00

I'm in awe at how nice I smell.
Durian cake and perfume, can't get any better than that.
That itself's already a good enough summary of how my
day went. I put on some perfume, went out, came back,
and had durian cake.

but...

just for the sake of blogging properly.

Coach's wedding today, as you'd have already
guessed by the picture I hung on top.
Was surrounded by gorgeous people (so much so that
it scared me) the whole time.
For a bunch of retards who scream on court,
flinging our sweat at each other and flashing our underarms
at everyone, I guess we clean up pretty well.

I assume that this is their new car.
Curse the day the BMW was invented.

I honestly think that their wedding pictures were one of
the nicest I've seen in my life. Creative too...
And so sweet. (:

The guest gift. 2 pieces of heart-shaped chocolates.
Selfish...

Some of the beauties that went.

I wonder why Cheyenne has her tongue an inch
away from my face... Has she grown curious about
how a mole-less face tastes like?...

We're just the way we are.
So shut up and move on with your life.

"ZEN! ZEN! Let's do the man pose!"
Man worh...

My dearest bella who stuck to her style
of a sweet dress and sneakers.
She looked nice, as always. (:

This is our "I'm so stressed" look we copied from someone..
I wonder who.

12 idiots seated at table number 5.

Coach and her Dad entering.
I felt like such a kiasu. The minute the door opened,
a bunch of us rushed like mad woman to get a spot,
snapping pictures of the bride and her father.

The back of her main dress.
She looked gorgeous (:

Nicole Seyler. Everyone was gaping at how amazing she
looked, and i'm somewhat ashamed to say that this
picture does her no justice whatsoever. HAHAHA.
She did look pretty though (:

YuYan and Ronnie in the toilet.
Yes the toilet. Why? Cos it was nice and we get
easily amused.

Cheyenne and I. She's wearing goofy glasses.

Bella said "I'm in love with the camera woman."
Who isn't? *Egoistic smile*.

Unglam shot. HAHAHAHAHA...
Sadistic person...

Vanes and I. She looked so pretty today, not as if
she doesn't every other day.

Hahaha. Failed attempt at artistry.

I wonder who was REALLY getting married today...

Mini apple crumbles (:
nice, but would taste even better if they were warm.

In case you were wondering...
we were posing out "2-A-1".
I know... It doesn't look like it... but...
dedication to our beloved class either ways!

My a1 babes.

The food today didn't really satisfy me.
In the words of Edward Cullen "It's like a human
living on tofu... It keeps you strong but you are
never... fully satisfied."
I can't believe I actually remembered that
so abruptly...
Probably the impact of watching Twilight again
due to lack of things to watch...
I am THIS close to starting my "the movie gives
the book a bad reputation" thing again...

On with the post... before I lose it.. again...

The wedding was so sweet... Coach cried ):
Tears of joy. I really doubt that she'd be
crying with thoughts like "Damn it... Get me out
of this... please... now... AHHH... This dress freaking
itchesss.... I have a wedgyyyy...."

They'd exchanged their vows, rings and saliva
before we could eat, finally. I was scared my
grumbling stomach would interrupt the ceremony.

Mum picked me up after a while of slacking
and drove me home. Told me she'd finally gotten
me unlimited sms'. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS.......
I hate having to be responsible for how many sms'
I send. ._. It's boring.
It's been a lazy lazy day as most Saturdays are.

Except this morning...
Honestly, when you only have 8 minutes to travel
from one part of Singapore to the other, 60km/h
is NOT fast enough... The morning traffic didn't really
do much help either... And my MUM...
Gosh... she drove me nuts with her relaxed attitude,
kinda singing to the songs on "The Power of Love" CD.
I say kinda cos she sings a phrase she knows,
then hums the rest.

Anyway, I reached there on time...
(ahem... 15 minutes late...)
then went in with some of them...

Okay okay I shall abruptly end the post
cos I needa go Expo now with Bro & Mum
to find God knows what.

Okay. Ta.

Zenda.

I'm so bored, I'm biting myself.

2010-04-30T18:59:00.005+08:00

'm going to being posting up random
pictures I took while I was bored.
You'd be like... reading... reading...
reading... WTF?...

Coach's wedding tomorrow. I'm pretty excited about
most of it except... the waking up early in the morning.. (:
and...
wearing a dress. :/
I'm probably bringing my bro's giant camera along so
WILL HAVE PICTURES for you. Say yay.
Oh!... and of course, I'd hate it if I had to miss
Besieged. (Online story by Jiang Hao Lie. Chairman Jiang.
LOL)

*
This week's been confusing...
Some days have been short like these past 2 days
cos of exams, and the rest felt as if they were never going
to end... T.T

I love being happy. Yeah.
I just realized. There was just a few moments this week
when I laughed like super hard, to the point where I
thought "Wow..." LOL... but honestly once you've gotten
used to just smiling or laughing politely, laughing hard
really is painful... Your cheeks hurt... your stomach hurts...
your eyebrows hurt... I don't how how, they just do...

Oh.. and I bought this >>>

a long time ago. I've been playing with it these past few
days. It's fun when you're bored.

I have absolutely nothing on tonight.
Not even going out with 'sha. ):
So bored and lonely at home.
Bro's out, Mum's out, I'm at home... here...
rotting to death...

Listening to good music though.
Music is good company when you're bored and lonely.

OH and ABOUT power rangers...
There was a Pri inter-school chinese dancing+singing
competition that was held at CT school hall.
I was so super surprised when my dearest cousin
told me. Didn't have anything on today after
MT exam so I stayed back to watch.
Sat with her and her friends (all P4... I felt so big...)
watching children roll around the floor and mumble
words for bloody 3 and a half hours...

Do people actually enjoy children acting retarded.
IT'S NOT CUTE... most of it...
THEY LOOK SCARY. SERIOUSLY...

I honestly wanted to sleep. The hall was stuffy and hot
and some of the songs really COULD put me to sleep.
Took a humongous bus back with the rest of them to
her school and brought her back home.
Had cup noodles at her house before coming back home.

Bro and I are considering buying a new guitar
cos we realized that our guitar sucks... HAHAHA...
Maybe. Will coax mum/dad into buying for us...
Hahaha. Con men.

Alright alright...
I'm not even bathed or changed...
It's already EIGHTTT...
Gosh. okie dokes people...
WILL POST AGAIN SOON (:

Zenda.

Dictionary.

2010-04-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

Just out of impulse...
It's a Sunday anyway so, heck.

Was talking to an a person that shall remain anonymous
just now... He's right. He's so right.
There's no such thing as teenage love.
I bet all of ya'll know that... yet somehow we can't
bring ourselves to believe it, can we?
It's the feeling of NOW that's got us all stubborn,
right?
:/
Doesn't that suck? Clinging on to something so
dearly when you know it's... just going to end up
making you cry and making you lose faith?

._.

He's right.
I'm glad he knows that.
I'm glad I know that too.
I'm not being all mature here... but honestly
if you think about it.......
it really is true. And it's hard to think about it,
but... sooner or later you're gonna.

Don't the times you want to scream suck?
It feels like something expanding in your chest
and you're having problems forcing it down.

Ah. I'm such an idiot.

Zenda.

PTI has never been that fun

2010-04-23T23:22:00.003+08:00

Hellooo people. (:

(this is gonna be a long... wordy... post.)

Today... seemed like it was never going to end.
It's been a long, tiring, retarded day.
By retarded, I mean absolutely insane.

Today had usual lessons, PE in the morning,
half of the class did 2.4, while the other half...
(the half that I was in) did 3 rounds of sprinting.
Each had to be under 1.45 mins. My legs were cramming
like crazy after that.
Van and I did something retarded in class for the
2nd time and got bombed with comments from
the people who were there. It was fun though (:

Since there was PARENTTEACHERMEETING
after school, both of us were too lazy to go home,
thus... just stayed around for 5 hours slacking.

Retarded. HAHAHA.

We did homework for about an hour till 2-ish.
I got teased by seniors for doing a science worksheet
on the human reproductive system...
At 2, we headed out to eat tako, saw class girls
at City Vibe so we ate with them, then went ourselves
to buy bubble tea, went back to school, and listened
to music for a while.

Got bored, so we followed Kai Yan to the library to
relax. Decided to play scrabble with Jing Wei, Hao Lie,
Kai Yan, Mr Chng (or as my class calls him.. TECKY!)
and Van. It ended up as Dirty scrabble.
Didn't even count points, stole other people's letters
and put in disgusting things. I laughed like some retard,
but it was so much fun :D

Went to the fitness corner with the those guys and girls,
played around a while, then when we stopped to chill in
the canteen, it started pouring like crazyyy...
Lightning and thunder, insane winds. Decided to
do some sliding around the corridor. So was doing it
by myself, then van started, asked a few other people to do it,
then we moved to the canteen floor which was already wet.
After about 4 or 5 nice slides, I lost balance and fell on my
ASS.
EPIC... My butt was so wet T.T Uncomfortable.

I laughed so much today. That was just a summary.
It was a fun day... (:

PTI was goooood. :D
Won't explain so much luh, but teacher's were fun...
and ended up my mum new Mr. Tan (art teacher)
since like... 8 years ago. ._. Didn't know... shucks.
NOW WE ALL DO!

After that was just a bunch of bullshit,
went home to eat, TV, and now I'm here
with scratched up knees and swollen fingers.

They're all worth it. Today was great (:

Zenda

86400 seconds in a day

2010-04-20T17:59:00.002+08:00

I hope I have pictures to post up soon.
My hands are itching to hold the camera.
Summary of this week:
- I screwed up my Chinese test.
- Didn't do that bad for Geography.
- Just took Science... should be dead soon.
- Maths test tomorrow.
- 2.4 Napfa on Friday.

HOW FUN IS THAT. And this weekend'll be
spent studying and burying my head in mountains
of books. (:
SO. Due to lack of things to post up here...

A doctor was having an affair with his nurse.
Shortly after this started, she told him she was pregnant.
Not wanting his wife to know, he gave the nurse a large sum
of money and asked her to go to Italy and have the baby there.

“But how will I let you know the baby is born?” she asked.

He replied, “Just send me a postcard and
write ’spaghetti’ on the back.”

Not knowing what else to do, the nurse took the money
and flew to Italy. Six months went by and then one day
the doctor’s wife called him at the office and
explained, “Dear, you received a very strange postcard
in the mail today and I don’t understand what it means.”

The doctor said, “Just wait until I get home
and read it and I will explain it to you.”

Later that evening the doctor came home,
read the postcard, fell to the floor with a
heart attack – and died.

So the wife picked up the cord and read, “Spaghetti,
Spaghetti, Spaghetti, Spaghetti – two with
sausage and meatballs, two without.”

Zenda

my love, is a life-taker

2010-04-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna let you guys in on a secret... kay?

Well... It's not really a secret.
It's just cos, no one it involves will read this.

The secret is...
I actually, do, love my brother...
PFFT... I mean not in THAT way.
I mean.. despite all I say and everything I do,
my unwillingness to share anything with him,
and tell him about my life and whatever...
I actually do love him :/

I bet that's the case for most people...
I don't know why we just don't want to admit it.
Stubborn people I mean. I've friends who
hug's and and is close to their brother.
I'm close to my brother... I am.
I just don't, hug him, or tell him I love him.
We just hang in front of the TV, xbox-ing and
watching weird shows.

but...

when I see my brother angry...
You've never seen my brother angry before
right.. He's like some psycho.
And he reminds me so much of what I used to see.
I never liked what I used to see.
I hated it.
and just seeing him like that makes me cry.
Somehow seeing someone you love become
something they're not just because of influences...
or... change of opinion, it really hurts.
and anyway... It's really unfair.
not just to me. Everyone around him.
He's not that kind of person.
I know.
I don't know how I know, I just do.
He says things he doesn't mean, he does things he
knows will hurt, just cos he's too lazy to control
himself anymore.

and hey, who's family doesn't have issues?
Not mine. Mine is jammed-pack with issues.
but the truth is that I wouldn't trade my family
with anyone else's...
I bet people say things they don't mean all the time,
and wished they could take it back later,
but... we can't. We can say new things though.
Like. "I'm sorry..."
Whether everything gets better is another thing...
but you do what you can...

I had a bad night yesterday...
Things happened, other things were said,
and left me sleepless for most of the night.
I woke up early... and just got out of the house.
My eyes were swollen, and I was restless most of the
day. Not many people knows what happened but
they still managed to make me laugh without knowing.
So thank you. cos I really needed it.

Especially to 'sha.
Babe. I realized we spent near 5 hours doing practically
nothing. And I still laughed and talked like shit.
I love ya, thanks so much, I actually managed to
forget everything.

cos people...
We just move on.
That's what we've been doing for our whole lives.

*

That's the book I've been reading.
"Merde happens".
I don't exactly know how explain it, but it's a real
good book, funny too. The author definitely takes
his sense of humor as an advantage in writing.
I don't think most people would understand his jokes
though.. :X he has a weird sense of humor,
but fantastic all the same.

Anyhow, I'm really tired, and haven't had
a proper dinner. So. I'm gonna go get me some
grub.
That didn't sound right... did it.

Zenda.

Idk what's the point of this post but...

2010-04-11T16:41:00.006+08:00

I hate Sundays.

The mere thought of Sundays makes me close my eyes
and force myself to think of something else but,
as much as I've hated Sundays over the years,
I believe I've never hated a Sunday as much as this one,
and the weird thing is I have no idea why.
Or... maybe I do. I just don't know that I know it yet.

Right now as I type away on this keyboard and listen
to the sounds of rapid gunfire (on my brother's xbox)
and the annoying whirl of the washing machine,
I'm looking at this bug that's knocking it's head relentlessly
on my window pane, trying to get in,
when I'm trying to get out.
Not literally... as in fly out of the window to my death,
or at least to some broken ribs, but...
you know, metaphorically.

I don't feel like I'm living my life.

I look at all these things around me, trophies and
everything, what do they count for?
I have nothing to PROVE that I am me.
Trophies don't define me. Pictures don't define me.
Nothing I can see right now defines me as a person.
If nothing I can see does, then what?
What is it that I'm missing here?... ):

I seem to have this empty feeling in me now.
It's not my stomach... I ate lunch, I remember clearly.
Maybe I can feel all the broken hearts around the
world now? Or at least, the friend's that are going
through a tough time now...
Broken heart's... not as in relationships and BGF's...
As in. Broken Dreams. Missing memories.
Just a plain piece of lonely on their plate.

I feel like crap now.

Not the... you know what I mean.
School tomorrow's just the cherry on top of
a fantastic feeling.

My brother says that we are "Emo, angst-y" teens
who are going through a point in time where everything's
just wrong and everything pisses us off.
I don't think it's completely true...
Yes, we may feel more emotional, but
I don't know why everything just whirlwind's
around your head at this time.
You start wondering why, and then when you can't
answer why, you ask all the other 4 W's and 1 H.

Why do I keep using 'I'

Am I too self-absorbent?
Even as I'm thinking about this..
should I be thinking about others??
Is it wrong to keep using 'I'?
I'm not being rebellious, though it may
sound like it... I'm asking a question, cos I honestly
don't know the answer ):

The world's nutso.

Global warming and natural disasters.
Argument whether it IS natural or not.
Don't get all geo on me...
Poverty, riots.
Etc etc.
Why can't we just walk on the streets and say 'Hi' to
every stranger we see.
Can you imagine if we could?
Not because our parents taught us so... or because
we want to creep people out... but... just cos we
feel like it, and people DON'T think it's creepy
or weird or unnecessary?
They JUST say 'Hey' back with a smile?

What about hugging.
I find it retarded that boys and girls... well most,
would find it funny if we just hug each other.
What about comforting?
Couldn't we just hug someone without having
to explain why to everyone else? Or being teased at?
Can't we just live where everyone would just
hug someone who needs one?

And in case you haven't guessed...
I'm not contented with the world we live in now. ):

I understand if you think I'm just trying to be smart...

or cool or if I have nothing better to do...
but i'm not.
Or maybe you think I don't make sense.
I make sense to myself... Does that count?

Here's a hug

to all of you who needs one...
I don't know what you're doing reading my blog,
when you should be doing something that makes you
feel better... but anyway,
know that I'm here if you need a hug.
Or someone to talk to...
cos you aren't the only one...
I believe everyone has at least a single problem to worry
about... more... Who knows? Maybe hundreds?

Sigh.

I can't convince you that things will get better...
but I think they will.
I don't know why, but there's always a time where
you feel nothing's gonna get better.
I'm not exaggerating or boasting but
I've been there quite a number of times.
You know what you've gotta do?
You gotta wipe those tears of your face, stop
whining, and stand up...
If there are people who laughs at you, laugh back,
because there's no point getting angry when you fall.
Wouldn't you want to be the one who helps someone
up and says "It's okay, I was there on the floor a few
minutes ago."...
Maybe you being nice could make someone's day better.
Smiles have made my day,
so you never know...

And guys, don't give up on life...
Never do...
How crappy you must feel,
I can only imagine, but you know that
if you're still living and breathing, there must be
a reason... No one's here for nothing...

I'm sorry if I wasted your time...

I just wanted you guys to know (in a really
around-the-bush way) that you're not alone...
and the world may be messed up, but...
we're all here together... aren't we?

Zenda

Synchronised swimming with Sexy Music

2010-04-10T11:11:00.008+08:00

At last (thanks HL (:) , a proper post. (:
(but I gotta leave soon, so, on with it!)

Yesterday nothing much happened.
Didn't go to school, too lazy to explain why.
Vanes came over after school for about 2 hours to finish
up our music project PPS, then we went for lunch and
ice kacang at the Kou Fu nearby :D
Slacked at Macs for a while before she headed home and
I went to meet up with Mum.

Mum went to Macau yesterday with a bunch of other
teachers so she wont be back till Sunday. THAT means...
Hahaha, nothing much actually...
I still gotta pack up my books and stuff, that's probably
the only thing left in this house that needs to be packed
up, the rest is pretty much settled in already.

"Welcome to whose line is it anyway: The show where
everything's made up and the points don't matter.
Yeap, they don't matter, just like celebrity vows."
(: Yeah.

Went swimming yesterday night when the sun just set
with couzzies (: It IS tiring. I practically forgot
how tiring it was. I swam like 10 laps and my legs were
cramping beneath me already,
so in the end I just floated around.
I haven't swam in ages. The feeling was really weird
when i jumped into the pool. I forgot how it felt like.
At least now I remember again... It sucks to forgot
something like that.

Weird stalkers. Called 'sha to come over and so she did,
then everything was fine again. It was already quite late
then, but I hadn't had my dinner so went to YTP for
Burger King. We ate and laughed till the lates were almost
all switched off, then walked back home, settled in and
went down to slack by the pool.

I swear, I laughed till my neck HURT like crazy. We lied
on the long chairs for over an hour just slacking and
texting and watching the residents in their houses.
There was this 1 guy that 'sha noticed was doing something
weird... and then she realized he was butt naked, changing.
She told me and I looked and he was pulling up his pants.
Started laughing like crazyyyy people in the middle of the
night, probably waking everyone up for their sleep.
Did a lot of stupid stuff, all leading up to the same result
which is us laughing till we hurt all over.

Some of the pictures we took when we had
nothing better to do:

PORKERS (:

'sha's flirting with a pig.
She has better taste. I think.

Me with porkers and 'sha with my daughter, Lyla (:
WHO IS by the way 7 YEARS OLD THIS YEAR.

We laughed like mentally unstable people yesterday.
Slept pretty late, woke up early to have breakfast at
Macs and then 'sha left for Service. (:

*

I honestly don't get the weather these few days. ):
It seems as if the sky can never make up it's mind
whether it's happy or sad.
I guess everyone's been going through mood swings
lately. :/

Napfa's on Monday, the 5 stations one,
and from next week onwards... I'm officially starting
B Div trainings. I don't even dare thinking about it.
Dude, I'm scared okay?...
About a lot of things. :/
Whether I'll be able to handle the trainings,
whether I can understand the methods.
Gosh, there's so much more. :/
I know it's a bad mentality, but... I can't bring
myself to think otherwise. Believing in myself is
not a perk I have, and sometimes it can be a really
big nuisance. I'm working on it...

Zenda

Tag replies:

WanLin: HAHAHA. 12?!

Natalie: POLO...

Isabelle: Oh, haha. Hi (:

JeeSoo: (:

Lala: I have no idea. Where ARE you?

YuYan: LOL, maybe I should record it.

"What? You don't know Hokkien ah?"

2010-04-08T20:54:00.003+08:00

ANAH ANAH, I know I owe you guys a real proper
post with good pictures and good grammer, but
I've been kinda swamped yeah...
I hope you understand.

(I just realised that Geraldine and I stay at
the opposite unit from each other. OMG.
HAHAHAHA (: )

Let's start with something I remember.
Uhm.
Hao Lie wrote "H... (I)" on Mr Chua's butt
with a chalk. Halfway through, he got kicked outta
class. HAHAHAHA. Epic.
Uhm... Our class was drawing hopscotch on the floor
of the classroom and other random stuff that makes
me laugh. Gosh, 2a1... What a class.

A lot of funny stuff has been happening in class these
days. Honestly, too many to remember.

I'll tell you guys about yesterday's match against
Tanjong Katong Convent.
Damn those guys were GOOD.
Pushing and shoving and clawing and smacking.
Flamed our players too.
RIGHT beside me as if I was invisible.
"Dude, like, I'm right here? You wanna talk it out with
me? What? What's wrong with our players?"

I just sat down and shut up like a dummy,
tolerating them flaming as like hell.
When Joanna shot in a really beautiful ball,
on impulse I went "SUIIIII!" (beautiful, in hokkien,
but in this case I meant "WOAH, NICE ONE!")
And the KC senior asked me, "What? You don't know
how to speak english is it."

"DON'T KNOW HOW TO SPEAK HOKKIEN IS IT?!"

I feel like spamming this blog by insulting them but
Coach said we shouldn't... so... :/
CT WHOOSH! 29-13. Feel like a proud mother (:

Hey, you with the blackface, I know you won't see this
but, I'm sorry I can't do anything to help you...
You have no idea how helpless I feel.
I just wish you'll cheer up yeah... Idk how you're
gonna spend the rest of your life like that when there
are other things that may come along... *hug...*

Had to do an English essay about Drugs again.
Brandon Teo was saying that the top prize would
probably be... oh.. I don't know... Drugs. LOL.
Anyway, Wan lin's helping me print it out so,
THANKS mummy (:
I don't really know if I'll do well for this one 'cos
when you read it, it sounds a bit awkward.
Aww well.

I found out today that Mr See read/reads my blog.
HI MR SEE, IF YOU'RE READING (:

Anyway. To everyone who's feeling crappy,
know that you aren't alone, and that the week's
almost over...
Push on, readers! (:

Love,
Zenda. (SORRY FOR LATE TAG REPLIES.)

Boring picture-less post

2010-04-03T10:48:00.002+08:00

FINALLY.
My first post from the new place.
Thats... not a metaphor or anything, seriously.
Im blogging from my new house (:
My room's coming up quite nicely.
Wallpaper, bed, curtains all up. Slowly moving in
decorating stuff. 'Ve been sleepin here for 2 nights alr.

It's really funny that people think once you live
in a Condo, you have complete privacy and security.
Thus, when you look out of your living room window
sometimes at night, you see people doing the weirdest
things. OH GEEZ... not like THAT.
I mean... acting like rockstars. Dancing in front of the TV.
Trying to do splits. Practicing pop-corn throwing.
(: It's funny looking at all of that.

Anyway. Bella's coming over later, then we're heading
for church together.

Hey. I tried reading "LEXUS" in a weird accent.
It ended up sounding like "LICKS ASS".

Zenda.

14 ain't much of a deal

2010-03-25T21:14:00.004+08:00

I tried sparkling water. Oh my geez it's dang weird. Stick with tap, trust me.
*

YEAH. I TURNED 14!
About... 4 days ago... So I'm... about...
14 years, 3 days, 9 hours and 28 minutes old.
YEAH!
Actually, to be honest, turning 14 doesn't feel like much.
I feel a wrinkle about to pop soon though. NOOOOO...

I've got so much to write, quite a few pictures too.
I'll start with birthday stuff.
So you already know about the A1 outing on thursday,
after that I had one with my Dad + Bro on Sat at a hotel
in orchard. I felt like fainting when I looked at the prices,
and my Dad got chissed at me for worrying about that.
I couldn't help it. It looked like the price of a drink was
what I'd see on the scale damn it. BIG number.

Mezza 9, that's where we ate. It's on the 2nd floor, though
'm not quite sure what the name of the hotel is though.

The place so high-class, my bro and I were freaking out
about how under-dressed with looked.
I thought we'd just be going to... Swensen's... or something.

This is the place.... divided by like... a 100.
The place was hugeeee. And gosh was I attracted to the
dessert counter. *Drool*. It was so... preeeetyyyyy....
And not to mention, real colourful.
Made me feel like working there. (: Maybe I will. Next time.

The smoothies.
Sorry about the semi-blurriness.
Stupid digital camera.. ):
I was too lazy to carry my bro's bulky one, so I
stuck with mine. Darn...

MY STEAK WAS FREAKKIN AMAZING.
I got it Medium Rare cos I'm too afraid of the blood.
I've learnt that the blood means nothing when I'm eating
something like THAT. AHHHHHHHHHHH...
Juicy... Yeah. Loved it.

Anyways, after that, Dad sneaked me into a bar for
people 18 and above. I personally can't believe that I got in.
I can pull off 16, but 18? Come on. Seriously.
Stupid concierge and his bad eyesight.
Saw a live band... Oh my gosh, who cares about the sound
system with a band like that?! UH... NO ONE.
Hahaha, I got a non-alcoholic drink ._. and watched them
till they ended at around 10.30.
The bar was really empty, only a few geezers and business
men letting loose. Either way, it was great (:
My Dad got drunk though. Semi. As usual.
Went back and borderlands-ed with my bro till about 2am.

Sunday was the actual day with Mum + Bro.
Just went for a nice dinner with black forest cake in a
chinese restaurant, listening to tone-death adults singing
chinese songs. How pleasant (:
Went home and rushed packing of bags and stuff, then
I went to sleep.

After school immediately went home, changed and
met 'sha, then took the mrt to French.
We reached early so bought snacks and walked around.
Lesson was fun today (:

After that we ate dinner at the cafe instead of our
previous plan which was to head to waffle town.
The cafe was equally good anyhow.

School has been fine. I'm actually gonna start paying attention
in class now! I promise.
I realized that you can learn a lot by just keeping quiet and
listening for a second. It really does work!
Class has been ridiculous... I inked Afif's shirt today. Gosh.
I thought the pen was closed!.... I guess it wasn't?
I'M SORRY OKAY I'M SORRY... it's not big I guess.
Just a small dot. I pity those two idiots behind me cos they
really are not benefiting by sitting beside two bigger
idiots. It's making me laugh though.
The class is getting really sick. Is this the time?
You know... THE time...?
Where everybody goes a bit... YOU KNOW?
And starts thinking about.... THAT STUFF?
Cos it's really starting to freak me out.

English was fine, maths fine, CE fine, Science....
confusing... but fine, Geog - test... fine, art, fine.
Today was just a... FINE day. (:
I'll settle with fine. I've had worse. Much worse.

Tomorrow's the sports carnival!
I wish everyone the best of luck.
I'm sorry I won't be joining you all in captain's ball,
I'll be there watching though. I'll be timing your games.
I KNOW YOU GUYS CAN DO IT.
A1 OWNS. BIG TIME.

Tons of love.
Zenda.

Tag replies:

Pamela: Hey.

JP: That's got me wondering... What is it?

JeeSoo: Hahaha. I'll wish you happy birthday! Don't worry.

Kim+WN: Thank you sweeties, Love you lots.

Cheryl: HAHA. grad photos, lena's bday... etcetc. (:

Jordan: LOL. OKAYYYY...

Bowling. Not my strength.

2010-03-18T22:11:00.007+08:00

All I wanted was a small mentos. I got 1 and a half.
*

Oh my gosh... I am near to giving up on typing cos everytime
my thumb hits the space bar, *wince*.
A hugeeeee thank you and hug that I can't give you cos
of whatever reason to:
Bella, Van, Kisshan, Afif, Jordan, HL & JP.
I owe you guys for accompanying me the whole day when
you could have been at home doing God knows what.
I love ya'll a lot for getting me those gifts and blah. (:...

SO SWEET! STATIONARY FROM HL! hahahaha (:
No, but honestly, I really do appreciate it.

So met all of them at Clementi bright and early.
I told them latest 10.15 but I reached at (according to fif)
10.22.
Fine! Sorry, sorry. My mum went to pick up my ama.
They went to buy toilet seat covers. No joke.
Took bus down to meet Kisshan & Bella then went to bowl.
Honest to God, if it wasn't for it being so fun, I would
never bowl again. It gives me blisters and bubbles and
blood and bruises. (HA. 4 B's.) My fingers are swollen.
And I suck, I REPEAT,
I SUCK, AT BOWLING.
It's just so darn fun (:
Jordan's sucha show off. ACT NOOB ONLY!
(Sorry for singlish. I have no idea why.)
Strike here, spare there. I have gutters like half the time.
Anyway, they gave a painting afterwards!
I like it. I LIKE IT. Shut up all of you who have comments.
Unless they're good... then... go ahead.

After bowling went to LASER QUEST! :D

Girlies.

Boy...ies?

3 and a half girls (:

And the whole gang today.

That's us (trying to be) all muscular and stuff.
Parody of a James Bond movie. Failed.

Screamed like shit inside.
At the beginning the guy had to announce something
about no running. LOL.
People came up to me from behind walls and screamed
in my face okay. I screamed. Back. Obviously.
It was scary okay!
Dark neon lighted room. DARK. Terribly dark.
*Hides in corner and rocks back and forth*

They ate at burger king in westmall.
Van and I were planning on going up to KouFu...
ended up in Sakae Sushi. HAHAHAHA.
(If my dad or bro so this, *dies*)
but their food wasn't half bad!

Keisha came after we ate, brought Van to Mos
to meet the rest, then both of us headed off to french (:

French class ended fast. Fun things end quickly.
WHY? Anyway.
Both of us ate w/ my mum at Waffle Town, then
'sha and I went to bowl. The 2nd time today for me.

MY FINGERSSSSSSS. NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
Okay I sound like some bimbo bragging about
broken fingernails.
But seriously. My right hand is super screwed
up. HAHAHA.
Laughed a lot of the MRT. RIGHT, 'SHA.
cabbed home with her. She payed ):
Thanks sha!

Thanks again all of ya'll for today!

I'll reply tags another time.
I'm shitpoofed.

Zenda

All words, skip if you want

2010-03-16T15:24:00.003+08:00

I don't know what it is about moving house that gets
me really emotional.

It's probably cos I have to re-pack my memory boxes,
and I see all the photos that I could remember so well.
In a lot of ways, I'm really sorry to a lot of people...
I wish I was a better friend. Cos I wasn't. At all.
And I know that. All of you were such great friends to
me. And you always stuck by me no matter what.
I was flipping through some things and picked up the
SUPERHERO notebook from out P6 EOY camp.
Out fell all the appreciation notes that you guys wrote
to me, and my heart literally started slowing down.
I won't get too personal about this, it's hard for me to
recall, not cos I can't remember, it's cos it's the easiest
thing to remember that I'm trying to forget, but if any
of ya'll lasallians pass by this, which I doubt you will...
I'm sorry yeah.
I wish I'd cherished you guys more.
I hope you guys'll forgive me, cos it'll take a lot to forgive,
I KNOW.

I've never been good at this 'friend' thing.
I'm naturally retarded at being a friend, I have no clue
how to be one... I wonder why you guys were there for
me in the first place.

Maybe it's the weather that's making me write all this.
The skies gloomy and it's drizzling.
Anyway... I'm sorry, RETARDS. (:...
I wish I was a better friend to you guys. You were such
amazing people and... well. I wasn't. LOL.
I still have our pictures by the way. NO, I don't throw
them away or burn them or whatever...
And to everyone else. My T14 rockers and all the other
ex-lasallians. I wish I was a better friend to all of you.
SO YES. I'M so very sorry for everything.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I'm such an emo freak.
It's okay.
Hopefully my next post'll be better.
I AM turning 14 in 6 days anyway...

ZENDA :D

p/s
gabriellites. I promise. PROMISE.
I'll come to the next outing.
PROMISE.
You can use this as evidence if I don't.
I'll give you permission to hang pig heads.

Sense

2010-03-10T19:52:00.002+08:00

I wonder what it is about life that gets you
so darn confused.
*

Today was realllll messy.
I woke up super late (and I sorta know why - the
rain was completely amazing for snoozing) and RUSHED
like heck to school, realizing I hadn't completed my hmwk.
Partly cos of last night. I slept at 5, woke up at 10.30,
dinner not eaten, not showered. I know. Retarded.

Anyway, boringboring, doodle, boring.
School's really getting me sleepy.
UPSIDE, HECK YEAH BABY, hols are next week.
SO IS MY BIRTHDAY (: I'm so excited.
(Not really.) 21st 21st...
I've got the whole March Hols to celebrate :D
Alr planning stuff with a1 people.
And in case you're planning on getting me a present,
please don't. I don't really know how to respond to them.
It's like when someone gives you a compliment you
KNOW isn't true. "Thanks? I guess?"
If you already got me one, which I'm completely
sure no one has, then thank you. Right now. I'm
saying it. THANK YOU. Please don't hate me for my
reaction when you pass it to me!
Anw. Anyone reluctant to go out with me during
the march hols, just don't go. Please.
I'd rather you not go rather than go while wishing
you were doing something else. ._. Ouch right?

I often lose myself in my imagination in class.
It's a bad... BAD thing.

Training was fine. Coach didn't come today ):
We ended earlier cos the juniors had to use the ISH.
I'm still amazed I already have juniors. (:
They're nice. I don't know some of them though.

Let's just get to the tags cos I'm hungry.

Tag replies:

Rui Xuan: HI (:

Somebody Else: Thanks (: Swensens.

YuYan: DUHHH.

Keisha: HAHAHA. LOVE YA TOOOOO.

JeeSoo: Hahaha. SPAMMER. Thanks (:

WanLin: Hi Mummy. Ty :D

Somebody: That sucks, NAMES??!??!

Kimberly: Can't find it on my phone ):
Remember, movie during march hols ah! Plan.

Jordan&HL: I'M FINEEEEEEEEE. :D

I'm thinking of an appropriate title

2010-03-07T19:39:00.003+08:00

Hello my fellow internet users.
I am angry at my Mum, as most teenage girls are
supposed to be. I can never be angry for too long.
It's getting hard for me now 'days,
but for now, I am.
My mum checked my phone last night while I was
sleeping. For the second, or third time.
After she promised not to. Now correct me if I'm
wrong but, am I supposed to smile and say
"Good job Mum, how'd you know I wanted you
to NOT ONLY invade my privacy, but break
your promise too! (: Good job, good job."
I apologize but I'm not capable of doing that,
as weird as it may sound to you.
Just taking deep breaths and using the computer
so as to not look at her a fume with rage.

Blogging, blogging. Right. I forgot.
Yesterday morning, met Van at JE library for
chiong-ing homework, as promised. (:

PROOF, that I did my work. Ignore the maltesers..
I was hungry and they had a vending machine.
That was the result. Me standing every half a minute
to go spend my coins.
We laughed a lot, spend 15 minutes just stoning before
we actually managed to get to our work.
From 10-12.30 we crammed, then went to basement
for a short glimpse at story telling session for kids,
then she went to buy eggtarts and I bought siewmai,
then took the train to Clementi to meet Rosnie and Yuyan,
then took the bus over to Nanyang for the musical. (:

That was us before and during the interval of
the musical. Overall I totally give a standing ovation,
but there was some glitches here and there.
I still loved it though, it made me laugh. (:
The set was great, the acting was great.
Won't go into much detail but I think it was a
good show. Loved the songs, especially.
There was a lot of interruptions during the show
though, like a baby making funny noises and people
giving completely unnecessary but hilarious remarks.
I think that made it a bit hard for them but they
managed to keep their cool and just go on so,
TWO THUMBS UP! :D

Jiang Hao Lie and Jordan Lim ruined the ending
for Vanes and I with their stupid lil not-so funny
joke though. Roar. RIGHT. RIGHTTTT.

Today went out with Dad&Bro to PS to
get Dad's Katana. WAHHHHHHHHHHHH...
He had a freaggin Katana in his house for a display.
LOL. My bro was drooling on the counters just
looking at them. I was happily drinking my starbucks
while they prance about in their happy little world.

I don't want to go back to school...
Ren zhu... Ren all the nonsense and the homework...
1 more week till the March hols... COME ONNNNN...

Zenda (shall reply the tags next time ._.).

Pink Boxers

2010-03-06T08:07:00.005+08:00

And I'm free, free fallin.
*

HEYO. It's a Saturday morning.
Time check, 8.39, and I'm leaking snot.
Seriously. It's gross.
Gonna head over to the shower in about 10 mins,
meeting Vanes at JE library to finish up homework
which I haven't touched at all.
Then we'll be heading to meet some others to watch
KOPI SHOP ROCK!
A musical presented by my very own CTSS,
I'm so excited. (: I'm even thinking of going for
next year auditions. If I get in, COME DOWN AND SUPPORT!

For now I'll post about the week.
It's been basically fine, got most of our marks back.
I sort of feel I could've definitely done better
though I mostly got a stable grade on all of them,
NO C'S! That's good for me already...
I just hope I will force myself to study harder next time.

Thursday, school ended 1.40 so CHIONGED back home
like a mad woman, showered realll fast, and rushed to
MRT station to meet 'Sha who was browsing 7/11. LOL
We took the train to Newton for FRENCH CLASSSSS (:
YEAH. GIMME SOME SKIN!
It was definitely fun. Learnt a LOTTA stuff in just 1 week.
She won't be coming with me next week though,
she's heading to Malacca. Sad ):
Pic up there was us waiting for class at the cafe.

I drank 3 bottles of this that day.

Sha's chocolate brownie + ice-cream.

My blueberry cheesecake.

Both sinfully delicious. Ordered pasta too (: Thumbs up.
Finished class quite late and took the packed train back
home. Poofed.

This was taken last Friday:

She came over instead of us usually going out cos
we were both tired so we settled with HSM3 and
macdonalds. (: Laughed like shit thanks to our
wild imaginations + Cast of HSM3.
She went back home coming to 10.

Recently had class-photo taking.
I had to stand in the middle. Apparently
it's kinda awkward. BUT DAMN FUN LUH.
We were all like pushing each other during the informal
shot. I can't wait to see how the picture turns out.
Nobody looked as if they had as much fun as us ):
WHY?! IT WAS PACKED WITH AWESOMENESS.

That's the class noticeboard btw.
You may call it messy.
Others call it expressing your mind and not giving a shit
about what you think. Yes, our class motto is Majulah 2A1.
Mr Chua somehow agreed to it. He's funny (:

FIFIIIII. Wearing a boat hat I was making
all science lesson.

Kisshan avoiding my camera, consequently
knocking his head on the metal shelf.
Very smart.

Our class.

My boat hat. (:

Kisshan's surprisingly nice art piece.

Jean-Paul saying Hi.

Justin in candid.

And look at my new sweet ride...

You think that's our class, you haven't seen the half of it.

I'M heading off now. Will be back soon, hopefully!
Have a great weekend ya'll.

Zenda.

The word is "hope".

2010-02-25T19:53:00.006+08:00

Meet chocolate, he's my best friend.
There's fudge too, but he's kinda sticky.
Of course Caramel, she's sweet.
They're a great bunch.

*

Hey people who still come to my blog.
I'm sorry for MIA-ing the past few decades...
I really haven't had the mood for blogging this past
few days. ): I have no idea why.
There's so much to write about, but i'll only
write about those that I can remember now.

(Long post ahead. Beware.)

Starting with CNY then.
I only have pics from Mum's side of the family
so yeap. (: Didn't have time to take family photo
though. ): Just stick with these for the moment.

My grandma and Aunty Rowena cooking in the kitchen.
YAY. Fooooooood.

Wienna & Cavan with the blocks. Yes. I played.
Yes. It was fun.

TADA! I made this with Wienna. It's our house.
There's a road that leads directly to the zoo that only
consists of a tiger.

"WHAT LAHHHHHH. WHAT LAHHHHHH."
"Chill.. I just wanted some crackers..."

Fun lah. Then Wienna, Bro and I went downstairs
to find snails by the fountain area near the guardhouse
and then went to buy Slurpee at 7.11. nearby.
Played with our bouncy balls also. :D

*

Last Friday was super dramatic. To save you the
"what happened?"s and whatever, I'll just say now that
I lost my wallet on the BUSSSS. And spent the night
looking for it at the bus interchange in every single 302.
And then just so happened that I got the DISEASE from
BELLA (BELLA! HANTAM YOU!), so I had a fever and
was coughing and sneezing my way through the night.
Painful like shingz.
Man I cried till my eyes pain as heck. Why?
Cos it hurt when I breathed and I lost a lotta stuff so...
CRY LOR. Aww, such a whine. I couldn't help it luh!
Went to report loss (dramatic right), but that was all
before I went home and crashed on the bed.

Before that I went out with SHA :D
Went to watch Valentine's Day together. It was a tough
week for me, or us, so it was nice to chillax.
Went to lot 1 and ate at JALAPENO'S PEPPER EXPRESS
(still major yummy) then went up to take neo's in the
arcade (: and book tickets. The ticket lady was nice!
Went in & the theater was basically quite empty.
The back was like 4 rows 3/4 filled and both of us at the
front alone and 1 or 2 other people.
THROUGHOUT the whole movie we were both laughing
like shit man. There was this guy behind who had a
contagious laugh so we were semi laughing at him.
The movie was funny, very very very funny.
Ask 'sha if you don't believe me! SERIOUSLY.
I could hear people asking ask to shush a few times.
That's a first for me. There's a first for everything!
It was fun lah (: Reached home around 10 plus-ish and
lost my wallet. TADA! LOL. Anyway. Pictures
of camwhoring.

My camera rules man. LOOK BEHIND ME IN THE
PICTURE! SQUIGGLY CARS.

I like the effects for this one, I just don't like it
covering 'sha's face. ):

Zebra crossing on our mouth.

oh, & just for your entertainment,
a picture we drew during dinner. >>>>>>...

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

*

(In case you wanna know, this is the part about
lessons and all that nonsense so skip it if you want.)

Class's been fine.
Listen to this okay. I just wanna say out loud here,
that MR CHNG does not know how to teach.
I don't know if he's been instructed to do this or
he thinks that's what he gets paid for, but writing
"SELF-REVISION" on the board every lesson IS NOT
teaching. Might as well not have come in at all.
I am so chissed with him, but the upside is that there's
tons of bullshitting during lesson time at least.
It's loud. And funny. BLAH. BLAH. BLAH.

ENGLISH lesson yesterday was funny. (:
Ms Lim asked my row to one by one stand up,
use our diaphragm and shout "HEY".
Then we had to read a paragraph from this passage in
our textbook. I screwed a few words up but did alright
I guess. I'm fine when I sit down and read but once I stand,
I start shaking like I've been bathed in ice water.
Anyway, it was fun to listen to my classmates talk like they're
on TV. :D

Witnessed first ever Public Caning this tuesday...
It was scary...
Not gonna say anymore than that...

PE was... Sweaty. Yeah. Sweaty.
I sweated like crazy today. It was basically
just running and sprinting and stretches.
That sums it about up. Still.
I sweat a whole shit load.
I don't even sweat that much during Netball... WOW.
Anyhooha, Geog test tomorrow.
One of the lasts? I think?
Wish me luck. I'll need it.
Got back most results. So far no C's yet!
I'm worried about maths though... Very...
Cross your fingers for me! ):

Tons of books bought. All 90% discount at
Raffles yesterday. $3 books also got... WTH.
Bro called me 4 times during school hours just
to tell me we HAVE to go down. Crazy ass.
Starting to read one of them already, so far so good!

Right, so, tons of love. Hug hug kiss kiss.
Zenda.

(QUICK TAG REPLIES!)

Kimberly: LOL! SERIOUSLY. LOL.

Keisha: OH RIGHHHHHTTTTT! HAHAHAHA

sully86: Oh, hi. Thanks.

WenXin: Miss you too ): I'm doing fine.

Maddie: Hahaha, thanks mad.
Miss you toooo ):

WeeNee: HAHAHA. you also. (:

HsuWen: will! Soon!

Vanes: thanks (:

Pamela: heya, haha.

Roxanne: Thanks! (:

HL: NO. T.T

Bella: LOL. (:

Somebody: UH. RIGHHHHHT. Hahahaha.

Yellow? Blue's there?

2010-02-16T16:23:00.003+08:00

I'm very very scared.
I'm losing a lotta people.
They're all changing.
Maybe I am too. Why?

Valentine's day's over...
CNY's only gonna last for that long.
All the reds and pinks are going down.
Out come the blacks.
Maybe that's just the way it is.
I feel like writing emo letters to everyone.
LOL. Retardedddd.

It's 4.32 now. 5 and a half hours before I have
to sleep and wake up and go to school and
have training. Sigh...
I wish I could just stay at home and sleep and
play borderlands and blahblahblahblahblah...

Just a short post to inform all of you that if
I die and anyone asks you, story is that I
wanted to die, don't investigate on my death
'cos it won't do anyone any good, and that
dying is so, soooo much better than living a
useless life.

Zenda.

Cartoon Heroes

2010-02-12T22:51:00.007+08:00

homo~~geneous~~.
2A1 kicks everyone's asses.
*

It's gonna be a short post cos in a while I'll be heading to
bro's room for some borderlands. :D

Celebrated CNY in school today.
Only posting up one of the photos which is..

WEE-LIN! She is so super awesome that she got her own solo.
Sheesh. Talk about perfect. SHE DID GREAT.
but her tutu was seriously really really short.
Is it supposed to be that way?

Got some gifts today (:

From Stephanie and Isabel (:

From Cheyenne and Jing Yi (:

From YanYing (:

From Vanes (:

THANKS for all the wishes and the gifts and hugs and blah.
It really made my day (:

Some doodles I made yesterday while NOT paying
attention in class. (: I know. I'm awesome.
Aiya, their not very good. I was just playing around.
And was bored so I posted it up.

I spent most of the time at home sleeping cos I'm
dead-beat today, don't know why!
I gave out my gifts today. I already know what
I'm gonna make next year. LOL T.T
SIGH. Why must it be so far away. I WANT TO
MAKE MORE GIFTS. ): Neh mind!
There's still youth day, and christmas,
and teacher's day, and hari raya....

I just are cold-cut ham.
It's really hard. And it tastes funny.
but good all the same.

Tomorrow meeting 'sha in the morn, then
gonna go have reunion dinner (:
Will post more soon. Sorry for the retardedly
short post. Replying tags next time! (:

Zenda.

I love you enough to let you go

2010-02-06T12:39:00.007+08:00

Painted faces fill the places I can't reach.

*

TEE HEE I have quite a lotta photos here so take your
time to browse through them. Another retarded friday
wish 'sha that made me laugh till my stomach hurt. (:

Mine first:

Here's sha's:

:D I know we're awesome. HAHAHA.
nah lah it's just a bunch of pointless photos we had
tons of fun taking (:

YESTERDAY was so dang fun.
I felt like I was in kindergarten again.
Honestly, there was no scorching hot sun, only
rain and clouds, and no crying, just laughter and
idiocy (:
Yes yes, we won tanglin. but no no, we're not in 2nd round.
and yes yes there was a moment of heart ache, but
no no none of us are giving up (:
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT! :D

After coming home from our bittersweet victory
against tanglin, we just went nutso in the canteen.
The quadrangle was filled with the UG's practicing for
upcoming parade, and we were just ruining the atmosphere
by acting retarded, screaming and laughing and tickling
each other. Sigh.

After that, the weather made me want to cry.
Maybe I was just emotional but seriously, girls, we've
made it really far with each other. The injuries and
blood and tears and sweat, screaming and shouting,
IT DIDN'T GO DOWN THE DRAIN cos I've made
impossibly retarded friends that I'll never forget.

After coming back from the match, Vanes and I went
to get cheap lunch at the nearby coffee shop that
tasted just as good as a $30 restaurant meal.
Talked a lot (: then about V day prezzies and she brought
me to the huge bookshop nearby that sold everything
except for what I wanted to buy T.T ):
Strolled around for a while but didn't find anything we
wanted so headed back home. Thanks Van (:

Went home with a load of crap in my hands, it was still
raining so much so that I managed to fall asleep in the
near-empty bus (: and unexplainable comfort.
'Sha came over and we took those pictures. ^.
then we went to YTP to eat dinner at macs.
crapped a whole shit load while walking home. :D

came back, texting sonney. (:
was doing V day gifts till my fingers hurt like AHHHHH.
PHEW I finished 45 all in the duration of 5 hours.
I know I'm slow but they had to be (almost) perfect. (;
Seriously, they're not as nice as I'd hoped them to be but
hey! it's the thought that counts right?
Wonder how I'm gonna give it to them.
"HEY. Happy Valentine's day. *hugs*"
"Take it or leave it, punk..."
"NAH."
HOW? HOW HOW?
Actually I plan to just leave it on their tables for
those people in my class, and those others just give it
to them personally. I guess that's okay right?
I took a picture of my gift but I'm not gonna post up just
yet cos people are gonna freak out about how small
it is. ): I'm not gonna get any. LOL.
It's okay, it's about giving not receiving.
Anyway, I hope you guys like it. You'll see in a week's time.

*

School's been fun (:
I can't really describe it.
It just is.

I hope you guys enjoy your weekend before
we get ready for another week, and then, LONG
REST for collecting red packets and wearing new clothes! (:

Going for my first reunion dinner this year
with Mum's side later. I dressed up 2 hours early.
Gonna take tons of piccies so, MM KAY! :D

Zenda.

Foggy mirror

2010-01-30T21:27:00.003+08:00

Love. Imagine how I'll feel when I look at
this photo in 10 years when everyone has grown up.

*

'Sha, Krysta and I went out for lunch today (:
Were supposed to go for "Tooth Fairy" but 'sha
was needed back home so- COL.
Everything's in sucha mess today. My hair,
clothes, bag, anything else I can think of.

Went for lunch at Jalapeno's pepper Express.
YUMMY.
Me being such a loser, I spilt half a cup
of coke float on their bench. And wet the
back of my jeans. Stop laughing.

'sha helped me clean it up with that amount of tissue.
Just contributed to global warming...

Krysta and I.
She's oh-so cute, but hyper active like crazy.
HAHAHA. :D

(this looks like a before and after picture. (: )

Anyhooha.
We stopped at YTP on our way back home
to return the CD that they rented.
*ahem* Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs *ahem*
Got snow ice, walked back. Major major windy. (:

And then, oh my gosh, there was this guy on
a silver motorbike, wearing a helmet + this
weird white mask like dentists wear which
covered like, all of his face from where I was.
He was literally driving in circles, U-turning at
the same place, driving back and forth, and
every time he did, he'd stare at us. Like, STARE.
Freaky as hell. He stopped about a street away
from us and just stared. Like AHHHHHHH!
In the end we went back and didn't see him anymore
so it was okay. but still... highly suspicious. LOL.

Went to 'sha's place and chilled for a while.
Played with her hamster. Super jumpy but
very very cute. (:

Awww... Look at that face.
She was scared of me for quite a while.
She'd literally just fly when I touched her.
As fast as lightning man, SPEEDY HAMSTER!
After while, she was fine.
Pooped on 'sha a LOT. HAHAHAHA.
She peed on me too. Shut up...

*

Will post about matches after this.
Last Sunday (which was a really long time ago..
meant to post this earlier but... LAZY :X), went
out with Dad and bro as usual, decided to go
for a movie. They sneaked me in to an NC16 movie.
HAHAHAHA. Daybreakers.
After watching it, I could feel my hands trembling so
I could tell why it was NC16.

Seriously, it's kinda easy. You just let your
parents/relative/friend pay for the tickets, show their
IC, stand beside them and continue talking about
normal stuff with your hands in your pocket like
someone who doesn't give a fly about anything,
then when walking in, don't even look at the person
tearing the tickets, just continue talking, and walk in.
It won't work unless you look convincingly 16.
I don't know if that was a personal insult or compliment.
Seriously.

It's gives you paranoia, more then horror. Yeah.
Freaked me out but I managed to watch it without
closing my eyes. HA, take that...

ABOUT THE MATCHES SO FAR:

Lost ZhengHua.
Can't remember the score.
Not in denial, I just can't remember it.

Won Pioneer.
(30+) - (a single digit number)

Won HongKah.
39 - 4

WE CAN'T AFFORD TO LOSE ANOTHER MATCH.
JIAYOU GIRLS.

We still got West Spring & Tanglin
before we get to see whether we can qualify
for 2nd round. We can do it girls! FIGHT. (:
CT WHOOSH!

My head's been throbbing since this afternoon.
I don't know what's wrong.
I feel tired but I can't sleep.
Sigh. I wish time would just rewind to a stop
and let me live happily again.
The person who invents a time-machine would
be really, really rich.

I saw a boy throwing a tantrum in the
restaurant today. I wish I could be him.

Zenda

Tag replies:

WanLin: Late reply, but thanks! (:

Rosnie&Yuyan: Tagged.

JiaMin: THANKS. You too :D

Jordan: Yeap... Share already lahhh.

Natalie: TY (: Still haven't met up yet! Miss ya.

Maddie: Thanks :D
Oh, YOU WEAR MAKE-UP NOW. HAHAHA.
Yeah, maybe you should try keeping your hair
long for a while now, but keep you're style the
same. Just in case it looks nice and you decide
to keep it that way.

Joanna: LOL! YOU'RE OBSESSED DADDY.

RuiXuan: Hey (:

Cher: Kay (:

F.

2010-01-30T11:49:00.005+08:00

I can literally feel my pulse.
Throb. throb. throb.
I wanna punch something.
I should get a punching bag...
That feeling in the pit of my stomach is
really really irritating.. and effing sick.
If I feel any worse, I'd be shaking.

One word. Ouch.
And thanks for saying that.

Zenda.

p/s
don't mean to be a grouch on a Saturday...
sorry. Carry on w/ your lives people!

No. I'm not telling.

2010-01-25T21:43:00.003+08:00

Spongebob and Patrick make me laugh till
my stomach hurts. Unlike this world.

"My life is a parody of a tragedy."

Zenda

Cry me out

2010-01-23T13:13:00.008+08:00

It's a quarter after 1, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.

*

Got quite a lot of piccies for show but I'm gonna write
a bit about yesterday yea.
Came to school super duper early to meet Vanes,
helped her and 'La time their running while the sky
was still dark. (:
The rain was really heavy and cooling and
a nice change compared to the previous days of
freaking blazing hot sun that gave me an unwanted
tan line. Yeah.
Girls did awesome for training yesterday, had a match
against seniors and we lost, badly. BUT they did their
skills proud. (: Exciting.

Headed off with Rosnie, Vanes and WanTing for lunch.
Settled with KFC. I treated Vanes okay!
Most of the facilitators for the Aspire camp this year were
eating over there. Geez.
Lala cancelled on us ): but he still came in the end and
left us sitting there, bored to death, so we left first.
(All of the graduated people really changed. Why do people have to grow up... I won't be able to handle it when everyone I see grows up and I'm still here playing with barbie dolls and stuff.)

Took the train back myself and 'Sha came over. (:

I'll let the pictures do the explaining cos it's seriously
very very lame. But a fun kinda lame.
My pictures first:

There are actually quite a lot more but
I'm hiding them. HAHAHA. (:

The ones I took for 'sha next:

Yes I know I rock. *bow*
Nah lah. Just fooling around.

Who knew it could be so fun. :D
Went for dinner at Lot 1 after that, followed
by some kiddy squeezy painty picture thingies :D
FUN. Called Jordan to come with us, but he
had drum lessons. On Friday. At night. So.
He bet with me 50 cents that I wouldn't
dare to drag him with me to take neoprints. On.
He'll see. *evil laughter*

*

My head's been hurting since I woke up this morning.
I feel like falling asleep again. It's only 2.35 now. D:
I just might decide to go downstairs to go run myself
to death. That would be a nice way to die.
I like the feeling when your legs collapse after you
decide to stop. And the heat following after that.
But first, i got to go shower. Cos the left side of my
hair is stuck together from 7up.

How clumsy I am. You have no idea.

Zenda.

Mr Chua stole my Ribena sweets

2010-01-19T19:50:00.005+08:00

Girls, no matter what happens,
I love you all, and I'm always proud of you.
It's not over yet.
We haven't lost anything.
FIGHT FOR IT!

*

Went to school today totally PSYCHED.
Left class halfway at 10.30 with Vanes & Bella to
go eat and change and stuff before we waited for
the bus to come. (West Zones, first match today.)
Good lucks here and there, went to change,
hid my ASSETS (HAHAHA, nothing to show. ._.) from all
of the perverts on my team *wink wink* by bringing
a jacket along with me.
Some of the pictures I took when I was bored :D

Cheyenne, Rosnie and KM (:

YES, that's my red jacket (:

(HAHAHAHA, inside joke... SSSSSHHHH...)

Won't talk about the match, I really
don't have any mood to. NOTHING HAPPENED!
NOTHING TO SEE HERE PEOPLE!

*

Roar... Instead of going to Aspire camp like the
ordinary people... I'm gonna spend Wednesday to Friday
in school, for 5 whole hours, TRAINING. WOW. FUN.
Gosh, just thinking about it makes me feel like
falling flat on the ground and dying.

Is it just me... or is the world so dang dull now?
Even my grandma's super awesome super delicious
hot dogs taste... OKAY. That's impossible okay.
I'm so pessimistic now a days.
I'm angry at my bro now too. He just bought me
snow-ice and amazingly yummy fruit&cheese bun.
Probably out of guilt. Yeah. Definitely out of guilt.
I'm eating them. Stuffing my face.
Growing fatter.
Dying slowly.
Sigh...

I wish that we'd just have like, a 1 year holiday.
I promise I won't be bored.
Same routine everyday, I'd still be fine.
I JUST WANT TO REST... mentally.
Things are buzzing in my head now, 24/7.
I just want to rest... take a shut down pill...

*

Class today was totally fine, no stress.
Mr. Chua's period ALL THE WAY :D
He gave us a maths worksheet - which I
actually like doing now :O, and we just did
it. Asked tons of questions, gained tons of skills.
Most of the time Afif was calling to ask how to do,
every 2 or 3 questions.
And I couldn't stop laughing cos JP is just so lame.
And Bella was blowing bubbles in class :D
Was sneaking Ribena sweets into my piehole during
class, slowly.
Jordan saw and was like "OH, NEVER SHARE."
So I rolled my eyes and passed it to him. He was a
happy happy son. And then gave a few more, and then
the second time he asked for it, SOMEHOW or
ANOTHER, it landed in the pocket of Mr. Chua.
WTF. MY RIBENA SWEETSSSSSSSSSSS. NOOOOO.

Anyhoo, just maths questions, laughing, talking.
And then all of us left. Today was fun in class (:

Anyway... about an hour and a half till I have to sleep.
Then 7 and a half hours before I have to wake up.
Then 2 hours before training starts.
And 5 hours before training ends,
then 30 minutes before I reach home.
Time calculating sucks cos you realize how much
time is used doing so little.

Comparisons are easily done once you've
had a taste of perfection.

Zenda

Life's a piece of doodoo cake

2010-01-17T16:07:00.007+08:00

Dang it I'm so bored... and I feel like my head's
been in the washing machine, and now I screwed it back
on and I'm all topsy-turvy.
Didn't go to school on Friday. Missed out on quite a bit...
Won't be training till Thursday... West Zones start
on Tuesday... I feel like slaughtering a pig...
F&C luh...
It's okay, I guess... I'm gonna be there for the team all
the way! BLUBLA YA'LL. (:...
I really hope you guys will do your best.
I'll be proud of ya'll no matter what the end is.

Anyways, I was so bored at home these few days
that I grabbed my bro's cam and snapped like, major
random pictures. I'll post them up here just for
the fun of it (:

(the BESTEST [so what if that isn't a word] dessert
in the WHOLE entire universe.
MILK STRAWBERRY SNOW ICE. GOSH.)

(HI.)

Yeah, my brother says they suck but, I don't
really care. It's just fun holding a big camera and
pressing that button thing... thingy... thingamajig...
Anyway.
It's already Sunday... and I dread going to school
tomorrow... Seriously...
Only upside about this week is that on Tuesday,
Netballers get to cut about half of school, change to
our jerseys and jump on the bus to our first
west zone match!
And then, Wednesday, thursday and Friday is
the Aspire Camps for all levels but sadly, we can't make
it cos of trainings and what not... Sigh.

I feel tired.
and sleepy.
all... the time.
Do you think red bull'd do the trick?

I wish that someone'd just turn off the sun
and let Mr. Sandman do his job...
Wouldn't that be just peachy.
WHY AM I SUCH A PARTY POOPER.
I don't think anything or anyone can cheer
me up right now. I need anti-depressants.
or maybe I should go for counseling.

Had dinner downstairs just now. Watched
that stupid Ping Pong show on Channel 8.
Was totally popping question marks around my head.
Ate tons of stuff, totaled up to about $30+,
and we just walked away without paying. HAHAHA.
Don't worry, my mum realized, freaked out,
and rushed back to pay. They didn't even realize.
EPIC! (:

Someone make me laugh.. like really, laugh..

ROAR. ROARRRRRR...
Why is this world filled with so much anger...
cos of people like me?...
Great... I just realized I contribute to ruining
this world for the future generations.
What more can I do. Seriously.

I'm going nuts.

Zenda.

Tag replies:

WanLin: HEY Mummy (:

Maddie: Hahahaha... yeah.

Passerby: THANKS (:

Jordan: :D... thanks son.

My left nostril hurts

2010-01-14T21:16:00.003+08:00

I started flu don't know when lah,
ONLY in one nostril.
What the heck? I'm literaly LEAKING
water, not snot, WATER.
Eek. Never had this before.
Anyway, finally it's thursday.
Tomorrow's Friday, and then it'll be SATURDAY!
'Sha and I are going to bake tiramisu! WHEE.
Something to look forward too.
Tahan a while more before we get another weekend!
Will blog more tomorrow. It's 9.19 now and
I'm refusing to do my homework cos I'm lazy
and tired. Yay me...

NEMO IS TOUCHING.

Zenda.

Self-righteous Suicide

2010-01-11T20:44:00.003+08:00

Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup.

The joy of finding out I was in the school team,
lasted for about... 8 seconds in total...
My heart was breaking down into little micro-fragments
by the second the rest of the 5 hours left that day.

I'll start with the boring stuff first before I get into
the more boring stuff.
PE played floor ball. Went back to class and it was
invaded with over-users of deodorant. AHEM AHEM. :D
Rest of the lessons were fine, fun (:
After school went to market with some of the Cdiv's,
sat with Joanna and Nicole cos table not enough space
for all 8 of us ): Talked about retarded stuff and
black dots appeared on my skirt from no where. HAHAHA.
Went back to school, team talk in hall, then
went to the ISH with the rest to see friendly match
for the Cdiv Volleyballers, FUN.
Saw someone again. Very, very weird.
HAHAHA, ANYWAY...

*

I really... Geez...
I cried like about 10 times in total yesterday.
My eyes hurt, so damn much now.
So does my body, my head, everything inch of
my body is throbbing.

Anyway, yesterday was pretty *sticks out tongue*.
ROAR. I'm going into depression.
*Goes into depression*.
Okay. I'm good now.
Not really.
AH. WHY AM I SO LAME WHEN I'M UPSET?
Kay. I'll get to why I'm even writing
this post in the first place...
to make myself feel better? I guess? I think?
And I shall stop going onto facebook halfway.
Okay. This' gonna be a loooong post.

Training started out okay... We did our usual
thingamajigs, passes, drills, yada yada.
And then at the Meet the Ball drill I completely
just crashed like a computer infected with viruses.
Everytime we made a mistake, it was either a sprint
or 10/50 star jumps. I collapsed like some retard.
Cried like crazy, gosh.
Pain here, yada there, main fact is that I was
dang bloody exHAUSted.
I missed out on 2 sprints while bawling...
Halfway when people were half-dead, coach said
we could rest once we finish 50 more star jumps.
I finished it... Then coach asked me to go talk
to her. I freaked out, like I always do when people
ask me to come and talk to them with that serious
face. Dang, was it serious...

Coach said in her usual calm tone that she was
disappointed in me, for missing out those 2 sprints,
and not telling her that I didn't feel well.
Yeap so I kept my cool in front of her and apologized..
and explained.. and then she asked me to go finish
my two runs, and I said okay. I turned away and after
1 crying session, it became 2, this time even worse.
GOSH I don't know if I'm like, PMS-ing or something
but I'm seriously really really sensitive now adays.

Yeah so whatever, I umpired for their half-court
game, then it was the end of the longest training in
my entire life...
And then coach asked us to gather, and she said she
was gonna announce the school team, THERE and THEN.
I freaked out man, buried my head in my knees, and
started hyperventilating.
Then she said my name. And I looked up, and started
smiling, until I saw Shannen's face. Everything just
went in slow-mo. And coach talked to Shannen.
And then asked Rosnie and I to talk to her, and THEN
I CRIED AGAIN. 3rd time. Yada Yada, hurt hurt, yada.
Went over to Shannen, cried AGAIN.
On the MRT home, cried AGAIN.
In the bus, cried AGAIN.
In the lift, cried AGAIN.
Showering, cried AGAIN.
Ate dinner, cried AGAIN.

Geez... no, I don't like to cry, especially
in public. If I do, there's seriously something
wrong with me that day.
The weather's been testing my patience these days.

I'm sorry team, for making you guys disappointed...
Again...

I know sometimes, apologizing again and again really
doesn't help, AT ALL, but there's, really nothing
else I can do. I won't BRIBE you guys, or SUCK UP,
all I can do is just apologize... So... I'm so sorry.

& Shannen, if in 1 in a million, you actually do read
this post, I LOVE YA, you understand?
No matter what happens, or what you choose to do,
THE WHOLE TEAM IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU.
& we're gonna miss you, a wholeeeee lot...

Everyone's losing faith...
So am I...

I'm afraid of tomorrow...
I'm afraid of everything...

Zenda

Tag Replies:

Rosnie: WHERE'S MY SOUVENIR! :D
I'm sorry I made you cry! I LOVE YA TOO.

Rachel: Hahahaha, YEAH (:

Clarabelle: Kay. (:

Clarissa: DON'T CRY LEH...

Joanna: Gee Joanna, NEVER gonna forget YOU.
HAHAHAHAHA, and five times more horny.

Maddie: Thanks (:

Vanes: Hahaha, YAH MUST CONTINUE.

Pamela: KAY, will, another day though! PS.

YuYan: D: DON'T CRY! Thanks, you too... (:

To C'Div 09...

2010-01-09T15:11:00.004+08:00

With West Zones and all those darts heading at us,
I got inspired by God knows what to write a whole bunch
of stuff that may seem like crap to all of ya'll but seriously
I just needa say somewhere to someone so I'm saying it
here, right now.
Don't stress, it's not bad, it's just stuff I want to say to
all my teammates individually. Just my feelings and all
that jazz. Like I said, it's not bad. (:

I'll do it alphabetically, so as to not be biased. :D

Cheyenne
Although you've been in our team for a really short
period of time, you still made an impact, and you know you
can count on us if you need people for support, or just for
random crap you can't say to your parents or teachers.
You've been like, superbly nice to me, and although I hardly
get to talk to you besides during training and recess,
thanks for being part of the team.
You're an amazing, amazing person, and I'm glad I got to know you.
I know you're gonna play a huge part in our team, and you're
not gonna let us down, on and off court.

Clarissa
Clarissa ah, hahaha. Nothing to say lah!
No actually I have a lot of things to say.
First of all, you're an awesome captain, you know that?
And I'm super sorry sometimes we don't respect
your decisions, or you. On and off court you're always
supportive, and funny.
In my heart, you're always our captain, because you
deserve to be. You have so many responsibilities, yet
you still have time to laugh, at joke with us, and put up
with all our nonsense. I KNOW the team feels the way I do.
I'll try not to make your job any more difficult because I know
being captain of our team is very stressful...
Don't doubt your abilities and your potential,
because you can do anything. (:

Isabella
Bella, bella. (:
Fun fact for you okay: you're the supporting pillar
in my life. Seriously, I can name you more than
20 occasions where you stood up for me, or
encouraged me, or believed in me, or wanted to kick my
ass for not believing in myself. Like that time in
Malaysia when Coach was reading out from the papers
she asked us to fill up. We were in your room with the rest of
the team. I wrote, "Tried my best even
though I was discouraged..." and I heard you
say, "I totally agree with that." Or that time you
told me, "Everybody falls down." Or when you smiled like,
so wide the first time you heard me sing in your
room. Or that time you asked me to go for music ministry.
Or time and time again, you were arguing with me,
saying I was SOOOOO paranoid. I could honestly go on,
FOREVER if I don't stop now, but I'm sorry I haven't
always been there for you. You may not know who you are,
but I know the bella that wants to kick my butt is still there. (:
You're an amazing friend 'La, I know you remember that.

Joanna
THANK YOU Joanna, for making me laugh like heck until
my stomach hurt like nobody's business.
I can laugh just looking at your face and remembering all your
stupid jokes. And SO WHAT if you're taller than me!
Thanks for being there for me, and not giving up on me
when I was OMG-ly so upset. You may not always have the
perfect words to say but you are an awesome friend to people
who have the benefit of knowing you.
You even made a random stranger on the stupid MRT laugh
just by hearing our conversation with Wan Ting (:
Even after like a million trillion years you won't be forgotten
by anyone, at all.

Kian Min
BOUNCY SMACK! :D
You are like, supernetball girl.
Kay lah, knew you since P4 but I didn't
talk to you very often even though we were in the same
class. ROFL.
You're super serious on court. Very swift, agile, strong,
encouraging, but off court, you're the same person, just
relaxed. You're still swift, still agile, strong, and encouraging,
but you're funny, and warm, and always putting happy
faces in your sms'. I love that you're laugh makes other
people laugh, and seeing you on court makes everyone else
want to be as good as you, or encourages us to do our best.
It seems so effortless when you play, but I know you put
in a lot of effort too. Love ya.

Michelle
LOL, MICHELLE, STOP CALLING ME ZAZENG!
You're like, super awesome on court lah,
and an amazing person on our team.
Without you, our team would be like a half-eaten pizza.
WHERE'S THE OTHER HALF??!???!??!
I know I don't make a huge part of your life,
but you do in mine! (:
You always persevere... and keep on going,
even when the going gets tough... super tough...
I seriously wish I could do that too...
Thanks for being my teammate, and my friend (:

Nicole
MY BUS BUDDY! :D I spent like... more than
24 hours in total with you on the bus in Malaysia.
And we talked about like, SO many thing luh (:
You improved so much since the beginning of this year,
and you'll keep on improving so stop worrying!
You're always so awesome, sometimes really egoistic (HAHA)
but you're still a really close friend of mine.
You always help me when i'm stuck in making tough decisions,
and you're always so encouraging.
YOU'RE ALSO AN AWESOME GK.
Took my spot! HAHAHA, nah lah! I'm glad you're
the GK cos you do such a good job, and your legs go on for
like, EVER. I'm glad you're my friend cos I'd feel like
something was missing if you weren't.
THANK YOU, for so many things I can't even say.
Just know you must have faith in yourself!

Rosnie
Room 317! My roomie :D
We both sail on the same boat. HAHAHA.
I have never, ever seen you not smiling, even when
you feel like crying. You're so forgiving, and so humble,
and a really calming person to talk to.
You're funny... and hardworking, and you're there
for me when I feel like giving up.
Remember that night in our room when Coach came over?
And we both felt the same way...
I could literally feel my heart drop, the only
thing that kept me from bawling my eyes out was talking
to you and laughing in the midst of sobbing.
I hope that you'll stay with me, and not quit, because
I'd feel really lonely. It won't be the same without you,
seriously... Love ya Rosnie.

Shannen
SHANNEN! STOP BEING SO UPSET AT YOURSELF!
I know how you feel. I seriously do.
If anyone does, I do. Cos I've been where you are a million
and one times. Do you remember how much I got scolded,
seriously, go and recall. IT WAS EVERY SINGLE TRAINING,
more than ten times of shouting and re-doing, and
what other nonsense there was to shout about.
I CRIED like so many damn times on that quadrangle,
because I've been there, done that, and I'm still here.
I'm still alive.
I was the worst, WORST player on our team, and I felt
like giving up every single time. All the sweat and tears
and injuries and all that shit, it's cos of the effort I put in.
YOU put in tons of effort too... please don't let it go to waste...
You're so pink, and smiley, I honestly hate it when you cry.
Do your best Shannen, you've gotten better, so much.
You ought to be proud of yourself, I am. (:

Vanes
VICTOR TAY! :D
All your lame jokes and your crap always makes
me laugh, seriously.
Thanks for being there for me and helping me stand up
when I fall, and practicing with me when I feel like
I should just drop the ball.
And for giving me advise, and listening to me, and consoling me,
and staying with me.
I don't like to see you cry, cos then I feel like crying with you.
You're also an awesome vice-captain, because you're serious
when you have to be, and you never give up on the team...
You take your duties seriously like you should, and you
believe in all of us when sometimes we don't.
Don't stop smiling, even if your cheeks hurt.

WanTing
Wan Ting! :D Hahahaha.
Yeap, I'm like honestly, super sorry, that
I disappointed you and the team so much on court
and during training.
I know it's tiring and irritating to see me keep
failing even after I tried like so many times...
I really hope I don't let you down.
Thanks for helping me bandage my toes, even though
it was like FREAKING painful when you put that yellow
icky medicine. Remember what you said? HUH?
"IT'S WORKINGGGGG!"
Thanks for taking the LRT with me, and going to the
library with me, and sharing your earphones with me.
It's seriously awesome having you as a friend cos
all the experiences and memories may be up and down, but
they're unforgettable and they leave a huge print. (:...

Yu Yan
Yu Yan! You really shouldn't cry, or be upset,
because do you remember your skills at the beginning of
last year? YOU'VE GOTTEN BETTER TENFOLD.
It may be tough during training but you keep pushing yourself,
and you always encourage others.
Your stamina, and passes, and dodges and runs,
all your effort's paid of cos you seriously have been doing
a spectacular job so far. I'm so glad to see you in our team
because you encourage me and you're there for me
all the time.
I love ya a lot, A LOT, cos you're you, and nobody else.
Thanks for everything you've done, (:

Lastly,
I'm sorry team, for letting you guys down so many times.
I want to cry every time I drop the ball, cos you guys
trusted me with it, and I let you down.
I feel like shouting sorry to all of you when my passes suck,
but I don't even have the energy, I could only whisper.
I know you all believe in me, I couldn't even believe in myself,
but now I'm forcing myself to, because I don't want to
disappoint any of you'll, my heart would hurt too much.
I hate when anyone crys, I hate when we argue, cos at the end of
the day, WE are a team, and no one can break us apart.

West Zones are coming, and it's going to be the last time before
we become a B'Div with the seniors.
It's really fast, you have no idea.
I hope we all cherish our last moments, cos they're never
going to happen again.
I'm sorry for whatever I've done, whatever I'm going to do.
I'm sorry if I make HUGE mistakes, even if I'm playing
during west zones. Thanks for being my friends...
I'm gonna try my best, to make all of you proud.
I love all of you guys...

Zenda.

Damn

2010-01-06T19:53:00.003+08:00

My GOSH I'm tired...
and overloaded with like homework on a hill.
And I'm stressed out on the 3rd day of school...
How am I ever going to survive?

Had training today. I learnt to hate star-jumps, HATE them.
We did a total of like 80 of them today... aching like crazy.
I'm glad I pushed on, was proud of myself until I realized my
toe had that black-bleeding-about-to-fall-off problem again.
Wan Ting and Rosnie helped me bandage it, and it HURT
like hell, thanks anyway though (:
West Zones are next week, 14th January.
Like seriously, oh my gosh.
I'm so not ready for it!
Then again, when am I ever ready for anything?
I think this is more of a mental block... I doubt myself a lot,
I realized...
Tomorrow, Coach is announcing our school team...
I am, indescribably nervous... and worried.
but seriously, who isn't? We all worked our ASSES off and
it would be such, SUCH a disappointment to not have it pay off.
I'm scared, someone lend me a shoulder.

SCHOOL issues wise, being Sec 2 is definitely very
stressful, if you think about it.
Lu lao shi went for further studies, I miss her a lot.
My current chinese teacher literally makes me doze off, a LOT.
I'm gonna have a lot to handle this year,
not just in school but outta school too.
Netball trainings 3 times a week, Math tuition
once a week, and French class once a week.
2 days I can actually, CHILL.
How am I ever getting through this? Someone please tell me.
Plus we have streaming... geez...

I'm wondering if I'll survive.

Zenda.

2 more years to death

2010-01-02T21:42:00.003+08:00

YAY ITS NEW YEAR.
Welcome to the horror of 2010.

Honestly, I've only done like, a fifth of my homework,
and school's starting in about... 1 day? Dang.
I don't think 'll be able to enjoy the last few 40 hours
of holiday cos I'll be doing homework like I've never
done it before. I've never hated homework so much in
my whole dang life.

Roar. The class time table on Asknlearn won't even
give me a break and OPEN.
I'm at Uncle William's house with Godfamily,
Dad and bro. We're doing house warming cos Uncle
William just got his bazillionth condo. Hahaha.
Anyway, his house's really nice, as usual.
I feel green boiling in me.

There's training on the first day of school, which
is kind of irritating... ): I'm really not in the mood
to even put on my uniform, let alone
step into school, let alone go for training after
seeing new teachers and what not. Gosh.
Now my brother's playing Guitar Hero with
Eugene, Jeffery's playing fortune cookie on
my brother's iPhone, Hazel's playing some block
game on youtube, and I'm being such a weirdo
and thinking about how I'm ever going to finish
my homework when EVERYONE ELSE has homework
too. ):

I seriously should've finished my work earlier,
I'd be more much more relaxed now.

Well. As much as I hate to admit it.
I've learnt my lesson, I'll finish my homework
earlier next time.
And anyway, I'm gonna follow through with my
resolution, or at least try hard to.

I feel like crying, and school hasn't even started yet.

Zenda.

This Christmas...

2009-12-25T23:00:00.003+08:00

All I want for Christmas is my 2 front teeth...
My 2 front teeth...
My 2 front teeth...

*

Hey Ho my dearest readers. It's already christmas, so...
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Seems it was just yesterday that I was counting down
from a 100 till the last day of school. Now It's less
than 10 days before school starts again. Aw.

I gotta admit though, I'm not looking forward to a lot
of things. Example, Napfa. And, stressful west zones.
But hey, like I said,
My New Year's resolution is to put a 100% in whatever I do.
And, I just have to keep telling myself that. Damn it's
going to be hard, but you can't give up till you try, right?
Maybe you guys should start thinking of your resolution too.
If you did already, FULFILL IT YOU COUCH POTATO.
Gotta look forward to Chinese New Year though!
KA-CHING. And my new clothes, gosh I'm dying to wear them.

The Retards came over on Thursday to my place. (:
We watched Shutter, like I said, and they screamed,
as expected. It was so funny cos we kept looking
at the screen during the WRONG moments. FUNNY.

That's us at Miss Devi's place. :D
We watched TV with her, caught up with her a bit,
but didn't have much time since Cher had to leave
and Vernice left much earlier. ):

Maddie making out with cup noodles.
Sicko.

It was fun reminiscing with them (:
Class gathering soon, I still don't know the
exact details yet, but should be able to find out soon.

Last night, bro and I went to YTP to get gifts and
snow ice (: Shopped around, walked back home,
got Black forest Cake for Mum.
Met up with 'sha today to exchange gifts,
and eat ice-cream and hotdogs. (:

She got me a SHIT LIST. OMG, really cute.
And a pair of super awesome earrings. (:

That's what my bro got me for christmas (:
A pair of orangey-yellow earphones that are
really comfy and good quality. He has a pair
that's white too. :D

THANKS for the gifts and all the christmas wishes!
I got a few unknown numbers that sms-ed me
Christmas Greetings but it's kinda mean to reply
"WHO ARE YOU???" after they sent me that so I'll
just act like I know everything. Even though I really don't.

I seriously gotta admit though, it's kinda pathetic
for me to be on the computer ON CHRISTMAS.
I seriously have nothing better to do. I don't usually
celebrate christmas. It's just meal, movies, rest.
Yesterday stayed up in my bro's room watching movies
and binging on steamboat left-overs.
AND WE WATCHED DEXTER'S LABORATORY.
Oh my gosh, so nostalgic. (:

Tomorrow Vanes'll be coming over super early
in the morning to finish our HIP project. I haven't
even started on my homework yet so I really
need help. Picking her up from the MRT station at 8.
DANG I'll be tired, but school's starting and I can't
afford to lose any marks when school just opens.
After that'll be heading out with my Dad and bro for
a few days. I'll take some pictures for you guys. I really
don't know what I'll be doing, but ANYWAY. :D

I really hope you guys are a bit nicer, or
less short-tempered, or maybe just nicer to
your siblings today. It's gonna be a new year soon,
don't start it off on the wrong foot.
On that note, I think I'm gonna end it off here,
so Merry Christmas everyone!
Hope you enjoy it. (:

Zenda.

Where are you Christmas

2009-12-23T21:17:00.005+08:00

Just grit your teeth and be patient.
*

I've got my mashed potatoes photos for ya'll! ;D
My bro and I made them, and we ended up only getting
1 bowl each cos my Mum's friends ate the rest... Darn.

TEEHEE. It's really fun. I can remember the recipe! (:
My brother passed his power to me already, so I'm
AWESOME. Not really. I just remember the recipe.

I had that for dinner. Yumm-o. :D

Brother's girlfriend, Xuan Xin, gave me these sweets.
They're super yummy. One of them is watermelon flavour. (:

THEY'RE YUMMY. And very addictive.
Crunchy. and Sweet. and Colourful-ly tempting.
(:

Alright, you might want to shield your eyes for this next picture.
You see, I burnt my middle finger yesterday, and instant
reaction was a bit of quiet wailing and running to go
wash my hand. Apparently the result is HORRENDOUS.

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YES. It's really gross. It's a bubble, with liquid in it.
At least I think there's liquid in it.
My whole finger is red now, with that fat bubble on top
that looks like the chin of a frog. ):

Whole team was laughing at my bubble today.
I'm like a circus freak with a fat bubble on my middle finger.
It's really painful and I can't even touch it cos it stings and
gets really sore. Been applying creams non-stop.

That's how my finger looks most of the time at home.
Sucks.
I have no idea how to cure it except for popping it
which is going to be slightly painful cos it hurts when
I touch it with my finger. I don't think a needle is
going to be much more comfortable.

Sigh. I have to put my hand on a pillow beside me
when I sleep, to prevent from popping it and being
splattered with disgusting bubble juice.
I know. Exit this blog if you want cos I understand,
I'm disgusted as well.

Up side is that I GOT MY JERSEY TODAY.
Hahahah (: It's white based with red sides.
Comfy but kinda see-through so that's what we're
worried about. :X

I bought my school books already. I don't think
I can process in my head that I'm going to be Sec 2.
It's a huge transition, to me at least.
Books, check. Homework, *crash crash burn crash*.
Someone should tie my body to a chair and remove all
electronics so I would be so bored, I'd do my homework.

Retards coming over to my house tomorrow (:
We're gonna have a horror movie fest.
Yay. I'm gonna introduce to you the best
horror movie in the whole world.
I watched it with my bro and totally
started trembling. WHEE.
It's a thai movie. Thailand is scary.
You get the drift.
It's called 'Shutter', there's an american
version but it totally ruin 'Shutter's image.
Watch the original one, it's much better and got
me shaking like heck.

I'm gonna have fun tomorrow, and the next day
and the next day. YOU GUYS BETTER TOO!
Enjoy yourself, the last few days you have.
And remember to stay awake on the 31st! :D

Zenda.

OHMYSHIIIIIIIP

2009-12-20T17:16:00.003+08:00

I was on restaraunt city, and accidentally
bought a bloody $15 000 dollar TOILET BOWL.

WHAT THE DUCK.

Zenda

I got to step outside These Walls

2009-12-19T19:42:00.006+08:00

Everybody tries to put some love on the line

*

Yes Yes Yes, I'M BACK, and BLOGGING.
No, I'm not dead. I will be in 60 years, but you'll have to wait till then.

My memories gone blank ever since last night
'cos my dream was majorly stupendedly lame, and awesome,
so I'll just tell you about yesterday. (:
Keisha and I went to Sakura, Mum drove us.
She wanted to treat us for helping out with camp, Kim
couldn't come so we went ourselves ):

Waited in line, paid at the cashier, and
went in to table 103! (by the way, I accidentally
stole 1 of the table 103 clips which are supposed to be
used to order food. ._.)

"Stop taking pictures of me eating, damn it."

The hotdogs are really weird, and wrinkly.

but she's still eating them.
Notice how it's all on HER side. (:
I ATE TOO LAH.

I dropped durian on my hand and chin and it was mushy
and cold, and mushy.

SEE. I eat greens.

'sha looks like she's vomiting into the plate
of chocolate cakes, but she's really trying to
lick them.

Yes. I know. Freaky.
Kids, that's what happens when you don't brush your teeth.

It's a grape, just for your info.

ICE-CREAM. :D

"Imma wannabe sumo wrestler!"

"So WHAT.... Starfishes rule more...."

We seriously went whacko, and everything we read
became screwed up. 'Sha read durian Pengat as durian pregnant.
Was hyper over broccoli and the awesome salad sauce,
plus the pedophile that was staring at us just cos he sat
in front. Perv.

Laughed till my stomach hurt and went home to sleep.
(By sleep I meant use the laptop :)

Met her again for her dinner at coffeeshop below
our house, she ate chicken rice and I just got a drink.
Sat at the playground and listened to music before she
headed off to her Dad's friend's place. (:

Bro and I made mash potatoes just now but I'll save
the pics for another time.

Have training another 3 times before school starts again.
I feel like just enjoying the rest of my hols by staying
at home and slacking. I'm still zoned out by the you know what
thing in room 317 MALAYSIA with Rosnie.
She'll know what 'm talking bout.
D: Very sad.

It's 11.33 now. I have 3 more hours to go before I
knock dead on the bed. I seriously need to change
my sleeping routine before school starts, or 'll die.
Next year's going to be packed, and my new year's
resolution is to Put in 100% in whatever I do.
It's hard, but... It's a resolution, never impossible.
For now, I'm addicted to Restaraunt City.

Did you know that in Kentucky, it's illegal to
carry ice-cream in your back pocket?

Zenda

Tag replies:

Amanda: HAHAHA. Okay (: TELL ME WHEN.

WeeNee: HEY

Kim: WHEN? Next year pack holiday should be able to.
Yeap I am.

Clarabelle: haha, thanks (:

Cheryl: LOL. YEAH. :D

Carl's Jr

2009-12-14T14:47:00.006+08:00

It's Monday already! The day for me to be MIA all the way till FRIDAY.
Or Saturday. Whichever, it doesn't matter.

So far the biggest news here is that I'm moving.
Guess where, GUESS WHERE! Next door.
About 4-5 blocks away. TEE HEE.
I'm not kidding, but I'm gonna spare you the details
for my sake in case there's any creepy stalker people. (:

Saturday was not my day. Some days are better than
others, and Saturday was not it. ):
Bloody Blah Blah Blah. I didn't speak for like, the whole
day. Super pms-ing. :X

I felt better the next day. Went out with Dad & Bro
to Plaza S. and ate at Carl's Jr!

WOWIE did it burn a hole in our wallet, but it was
kinda worth it. I say kinda 'cos the burgers were
superb-ly BEEFY yet the chilli cheese fries tasted like
Singaporean curry. Yeah. WHY?
So that was a disappointment. My bro had angus beef
in his burger so every bite just COMPLETELY filled your
throat like a clog in a basin. YUMMLICIOUS.
I had the double bacon yada yada yada. Dad had a
burger called "SUPER STAR". Self-absorbent much? LOL.
Bro said Muslims wouldn't go there cos of the pork and
Buddhists, cos of beef, so they lost quite a bit of business
in Singapore, but the people who COULD go there seriously
enjoyed themselves. I tried a TRIPLE whopper with my bro,
ye-ah, it's not on the menu, you have to ask for it personally,
and it was so much more appetizing than Carl's Jr, but
that's probably 'cos it was like 3 fists tall. :D

Yes, yes, my dear cousins are growing up.
I still think in my head that they're 6 and 7. LOL.
They're staring to use the word 'noob'. :0
It's kind of incredible.

*

Gonna do tag replies before I leave for the next 5 days. :\
GOODBYE, CRUEL WORLD. Mellow dramatic.

Zenda.

Keisha: :DDDDDDDDD

Shauna: Thanks (:

WeeNee: hahahaha, ditto (:

Cheryl: YES WOMAN, I WANT TO.

Pamela: Hahahaha, thanks :D

V: It's okay... see ya V.

Yuyan: :D that's the same thing my bro said. LOL.
HAHAHA. YEAH. It's becoming a bit more obvious.

Clarabelle: Thanks, okay.

Rosnie: Relinked (:

Jordan: LOL. CALL ME PSYCHO. ROAR.
Marigold! MARIGOLD MARIGOLD MARIGOLD! ):

Jolyn: Uhm. Thanks. I guess. O_O

Passerby: Thanks. I do too. (:

Natalie: WHEEEEEEEE! HIIIIIII. YEAHHHH. OKAYYYYYYYY. :DDDD

Hi. I love you. Bye.

2009-12-10T17:23:00.004+08:00

By the way, I hate the new Macs packaging D:

*

Hey all, I think I can officially say I'm back to blogging because
holidays are so damn boring. D:
The only thing that's happening is a cruise for my grandma
which is during the dates of Youth Camp ):

Anyway, I have stuff to blog about! Wow.
Firstly, facilitating national brownie sixers camp :D
Mum was the one who planned it so invited
'sha, kim and I to help out. It was awesomely fun.

On thursday I reached back home from Malacca
netball trip at about 8.30pm, and slept at 1.
Then had to wake up at 7 on Friday to meet up
with the other 2 so packed my stuff and headed downstairs
where Mum drove all of us to GGS at Bishan.

Put all our stuff down in the room before we went to
the main hall (Which by the way is air-conditioned (:)
to have introduction games and stuff. All 3 of us saw
2 other girls from DLS who will be P5 in 2010 (:
Very funny people.
We got to know the other girls while they were
doing their group posters and then we planned for a
Song & Dance competition at night. WOOT. (:

Some of the groups really reminded me of my old
camp groups which I hated; never even tried to get
to know the group members, so I tried to help them not
end up like me, talked to some of them and made it not
sound like a pep talk so that they just MIGHT listen. (:
In the end most of them pulled through, made me oh-so
proud (:

Most of their conflicts were from the Song & Dance competition
luh, as funny as it may sound. They (training to be sixers,
which in human form means 'leaders') had to make decisions
in their group about choreography and song choice, etc etc,
so the groups had very different personalities and ended up in
verbal cat fights. Hahahaha. :X
I understand the feelings that our seniors had when our
groups fought now. Very very bad feeling.

The 3 of us went to Junction 8 to be Yakitori which
is DANG addictive. We ate it for 3 days straight for
lunch. :D SHINGZ.

Then went back to our dorm to rest.
Only had 2 beds, 1 queen sized and 1 single sized
so 'sha and I shared a bed while Kim had her own.

(HALF MY ROCKER FACE CUT OFF LEH.
HOW CAN.)

This' the gang. We really bonded with the girls during
those 3 days. Very memorable, they're all so cute!

Okay Okay, about the competition.
The 3 of us sat beside the stage on our chairs with our
giant white board & markers (cos we were the judges)
and played the songs for them, yada yada. After each
performance then we'd grade them on 5 criteria's and added
up to a 300 points, divided by 3. That would be /100.
So in the end we gave out prizes to all of them for their
efforts put in and we performed our own dance to the song
waking up in vegas! And we asked them to grade us too.
Sweethearts were super lenient luh, the highest we got was
99.99/100. Hahahahahah (: Made my day.

At night we ordered macs, chatted a lot before
we finally decided to snooze.

2nd day didn't do much, the Young Adults came in
and Kim had to leave so 'sha and I pretty much spent the day
not doing much besides playing with the big beach ball
and prancing around like lunatics.

The whole gang headed to Junction 8 to buy
breakfast for Day 3 and I was assigned to Snowy Owls (ahem)
so YAY. That was the group that won the competition (:
They bought tuna and chocolate milk, yum-o.
Headed back, evaluation and showers before bed (:
This time 'sha and I slept in the girls dorm. Had to
wake up every 10 minutes to ask someone to sleep and
check what was that noise, stuff like that.
I loved doing that (: 'sha did most of it though.

Was supposed to wake them up at 6.30, but me myself
snoozed my 6 o'clock all the way to 6.45. OOPS.
None were late though, had to assemble by 8 so had ample
amount of time. (:
They went off to their nature walk while 'sha and I
rubbished around and when they came back, we headed
back home, then I went out with Dad & bro for lunch.

:D

The day after that was 'sha's birthday so stayed up
till 12 to wish happy birthday before I fell asleep, then
went to collect my phone at Causeway from servicing (YESSSS)
and met 'sha at gombak, waiting for her uncle to come
pick us up (:
He drove all of us to a clubhouse to bowl, which I by the way,
SUCK at. Not unknown but I just though I should tell you,
just in case you wanted to know. Right. Okay.
Then went to Karaoke for a LONG TIME. Funn-ey (:
Cut her chocolate cake. TEE HEE.

And the most memorable part for me was laser quest.
it looked scary from the screen cos on screen it was black and white,
but really, the room had neon paintings and you could see
the light from the starting point, so wasn't scary at all.

All of us had a gun and 'armor', ahem ahem, and ran around
shooting lasers at each other. It was guys against girls.
Guys won. Shut up.
Then went for dinner at nearby kopitiam which had really
good food, I totally just scoffed down a whole chicken. :X
Then her uncle drove us back.

Got certificates someore leh! hahahaha (:
I was completely sweating like a pig after that.
20 minutes of running around shooting people is
really fun but TIRING.
At first we were all like "CHARGE! HIDE! THEY'RE THERE! NO HERE!"
and after 10 minutes we completely just walked around with the gun
in one hand pointing and pressing and panting. :X
BUT IT WAS FUN NONETHELESS! :D

Came back home and was poofed out so fell asleep (:

Anyhow, I'm going to bathe now before heading off
to Orchard for New year shopping. Or just, shopping in general.
BYE ALL

Zenda.

Back from Malacca

2009-12-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

It's 12.30 already, and I came back only 4 hours ago from
my day Malaysia trip with the Netball girls.
Oh gosh, super tired. Physically AND mentally.
I can't really type much now cos I can't remember anything,
plus tomorrow gotta wake up early cos Keisha, Kim and I are
gonna help my mum out at Camp Christine with the brownies.
Training them to become sixers.
Ah, brownies. I miss those days.
Anyway, I'm not gonna upload the photos that soon.
I gotta take someore tomorrow. GOSH.
Time, time, slipping through my fingers so quickly.
I feel like I'm falling through quick sand and I'm
struggling, and falling quicker.

I'm talking to Jordan now. My psycho son.
And arguing with BK on FB about which milk is better.
Meiji, or Marigold. OBVIOUSLY MARIGOLD RIGHT?
Hel-lo? :D
I'm high cos I'm so tired. That happens sometimes.
Had slight improvement in differentiating Shen Ting and
Shen Khueen during Malacca trip. (: yay.
Shen Khueen's the one I do the number 8 with our hips.
And the one with candid shots.
And the one who likes Cha Ye Dan. :D
LIKE ME.
Gosh was it fun. I'll upload some pics next time.
Those who have my facebook, you can go check soon. :D

Tons of love.
Zenda.

Pills

2009-11-27T01:36:00.003+08:00

Smile when you're blue.
Laugh when you wanna cry.
It'll help you get through the another day.
I know it helped me.
So.
(:

*

Oh my gosh, I just want to type and type and type cos
I don't know how I'm feeling now.
I remember me feeling sad somewhere along the line
of 11-12.30pm, and then I just told myself to laugh, and I did,
and now I don't know whether I'm happy or sad.

SAY WHAT?

Talked to Keisha and Khairul just now.
They've got me booked for next Saturday.
Another day to occupy myself.
Talked to Khairul and told him my secret (SSSSSHHHHH).
HAHAHAHAHA, aww nuts. There goes that thingamajig.
That was why I was sad I think.
I can't remember. Played borderlands then cooked steam eggs.
Drank chocolate milk.
Yum.
Played around with the guitar, surfed FB and youtube.
Sigh. I'm so bored trying to distract myself. :/
I suck. Big big time...

I want to cry. but I won't, don't worry.
(as if you would)
I'm waiting for tomorrow to meet 'sha.
I am so damn.... SHITTY NOW. "Excuse my french".
Could someone just shoot me and put me out of my misery.
How if I asked to shoot me.
And they got the gun.
Hesitated, aimed.
Got hit my a bird poop missile.
Lost aim.
Shot me in my leg.
Twice.
I didn't die.
And I became 'lame'.
And I was trapped in the hospital for the rest of my life?
That would suck.

I want to cry when I watch "Up". It's so sad...
WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DIE?! Weep...
I'm so so so so so so so so upset now. Self-control.
Brad Doggett is awesome. Like way awesome.
Just go youtube and search for him. Especially his
self-composed songs, like "April". *Faints*.
He's a really good (:

BOOM. The damage is done so I guess I'll be leaving.

You don't have to say, what you did.
I already know. I found out from, HIM.

Gosh I'm bored. 2.15 in the morning and I
seriously can't sleep.
Someone help...
Damn it, I'll just go fiddle with some chords and
take some pills to make me go to sleep.
I'm so damn emo.
AM NOT. I rule... Hahahaha, kidding lah.
*scoff*

Zenda.

Sports camp

2009-11-25T14:42:00.002+08:00

I should really stop staring at people.
I can't help it, I just want to try and see if I can figure out what
they're thinking about.
Not just girls. Guys too.
I'm sorry. Sometimes I'm so weird that I scare myself.

Self-control is key.
In every aspect of life.
Sadly.

*

Before I start about the sports camp I just came back from,
read this - just a warning, it's kind of weirdly retarded: (found on this link)

In another incident in 1998, a girl's talking Po doll was thought to
be saying "faggot faggot, faggot faggot, faggot faggot, bite my butt!",
as well as "fatty, fatty". (Supporters of the interpretation of Tinky Winky
as the gay pride symbol might take this as evidence.)
The toy was recalled and it was revealed to have
said "fidit, fidit," inspired by the Cantonese for "faster, faster."

I'm sorry again for finding that so amusing, I just do. HA (:

I just watched the show "Into the wild".
Superly duperly unique and intriguing, kind of hard to
understand, but you'd get it if you tried.
It isn't as lame as it sounds. Currently watching "The reaping".
Kind of creepy, but I've seen worse. Okay eew, scary.
Eew, blood. Eew, music. Eew, secret passage way. Eew, witch symbol.
Eew, behindyoubehindyoubehindyou. Dang freakin nabbit.
Phew. It was just a psychotic girl that's bleeding all over.
I am, WAS, eating subway cookies. They were major yums until
I decided to freak myself out with an american horror.
Lost my appetite.

Sports camp was kinda okay. I'm sorry I don't have any pictures!~
Didn't bring my camera and phones + wallets were all 'confiscated' cos
we weren't supposed to be 'distracted'.
Anyway, it was fun. Sorta. Went for a 10-12 km trek with
everyone. Rocks in my shoe, wet my right foot in the stream,
uphill, downhill, sideways, longways... I'm gonna sound like Willa Wonka
talking about his great glass elevator. :/

(Watching reruns of American Idol now)

Night time was fun for a while before it got really cold
and I started shivering cos I opened up my sleeping bag and
used it as a base with Clarissa but I didn't have a blanket so
it got a little chilly. Showering was fine. Pfft, it was nice
showering at night, lots of space and time.

Then had game challenge, building a toy robot
out of styrofoam pieces.
*Blush* Just remembered something. Anyway.
Push-ups, jumping jacks, starjumps, suicide drills,
sit-ups, piggy-backing. I'm tired just typing it out.
And in the hall.
*Blush* Just remembered that thing again. ANYfreakinWAY,
couldn't really concentrate... and was a bit high.
It's really annoying when I'm high cos I make-up really weird
words and sounds and I just can't shut up. Like now.
After that small thing in the ISH and in the hall I really didn't feel
like going home. Didn't want to be too obvious so I grabbed my bags
and made a run for it. It won't be happening anytime soon again,
cos. Nevermind. If I start, I'll never stop.
*Flips hair* What-EVA.

It was fun lah. I'm gonna miss a whole bunch of peeps.
You'll can always add me on FB. (:
*weep weep* Aww well. In the meantime,
BORDERLANDS! WOOT

It's so not like me to get hyped up over a game but, COME ON,
SERIOUSLY, BORDERLANDS.
I haven't been this excited since like... Rockband.
I sound so geeky. Cos I am. (:
Ooo well, I haven't even bathed yet. No borderlands till that.
Darn, I'm too lazy.
Be happy you're not beside me now.
*Smells shirt...*
*Dies...*

Anyhoo, I've decided I'm gonna perform for my sec 4 graduation!
WOOT. Hahahaha. It was a random thought, and I still have 3 years
to practice, so HA!
It's a maybe only, got tons of stuff to settle first.
Like the big O's. GASP.
3 years lah, chill. (:

Note to self: Self-control. Self-control. :/
Will reply tags next time. :D BYE ALL.

Zenda

Dance Dance

2009-11-15T21:33:00.003+08:00

OMG, blog is soooooooo way way dead.
Mostly my fault, I'm sorry my dear blog! I neglected you!
Holidays now already. WOOT. Fast, huh. (:
I went dancing today. HAHAHA Don't think too far.
It's at Keisha's church, teen dance. Only for people 12-14.
Went CRAZYYY and now my body's aching like siao.
Anyway, thank God there's no netball tomorrow.
1 more day to rest. HEHEHEHE. Still need to take care of Mum,
not sure whether she's fully recovered yet.
She went for surgery you see, made me so bloody worried lah,
but she's fine now.
I went shopping and stuff, tons of stuff brought home.
Getting new clothes for New years, nothing much.
Been writing stories, gonna publish a book of short stories with
my bro :D Fun Fun Fun, i'm only finished with my first.

ANYhoo, i'll post next time. I'm scared I won't but
I'll try. I'm super tired today, but it was a darn fun! :D
DANCING RULES.

Zenda.

TAG REPLIES

Wen Xin: REMOVED

Maddie: THANKS (: OVER!

Passerby: thanks.

HaoLie: GO AND DIE LAH HAO LIE.

Jordan: :D:D:D:D

RX: thanks (:

Cheryl: Yeah D:

Isabel: LOL. YEAH.

Jia Min: THANKS (:

Chloe: HAHAHA! AH WEE. (:

Shauna: thanks (:

Pamela: Hahahaha, hi (:

MEGA BANANA

2009-10-25T17:10:00.002+08:00

Left: Regular Banana.
Right: Mega Banana.

I DONT KNOW WHERE MY BRO FOUND IT.
We made it into banana smoothie. :D
Took like a week to finish everything. T.T

Zenda

C'div 09 :D

2009-10-19T15:06:00.003+08:00

I love you guys.

Mum's birthday/ New blog :D

2009-10-14T12:58:00.003+08:00

CLICK HERE

No it's not website for perverts or game site for geeks.
Yep. It finally happened. I'm creating a new blog.
Not saying I won't post here.
Also not saying I feel like posting here anymore.
Sad face.
but I'm not gonna delete this blog.
I've had since I was p5.
I'm posting now, if you go now, it probably
won't be updated yet :D
It won't be like this blog though.
I'm just thinking too much now adays and
I really want to write it down somewhere, and
writing has become too much of a chore to me,
so - there you go.

I wouldn't even know about tumblr.com if it
wasn't for JAS :D Her blog links down there
if you wanna go check it out :D
I love her blog. It's super unusually luring.

Anyways.
Mum turned __ this year :D
Can't say the age. Women don't like it.
I don't know why.
I'm 13! See? it's so easy :D

Living room scattered for balloons.
Super delightful seafood dinner.
D24 Durian Cake. :D

HA.
I won't be posting for a while more.
Trying to work out my other blog :D
Maybe you guys should go check it out?
Just note : it's nothing like this blog,
but anyways. It's just thoughts.
If

Cry me a river

2009-09-28T18:52:00.002+08:00

I'm holding a stick of clouds in my hand,
but they won't move.
I think they died.

*

Yesterday went to Rollerblade with my brother
while he jogged. He jogs faster than me.
Says a lot about how fast I blade. HAHAHA (:
Fell twice, not major injuries.
Just cuts and bruises here and there.
People were staring at me cos everytime
I fell, I'd laugh. :D
Nothing much worth talking about.

This morning (all mondays), school
started 1 hour later than usual.
Woke up earlier than I could have (as usual)
went to school. Met Illa to finish our
homework :X Then the rest arrived.
Crapped with Bella and the sec 5s
till the bell rung. Funny, funny, funny.

I got a guitar pick today. (:
but I'm only keeping it till it's needed again.
Yay. Hahaha. (:

Art - FUN
MT - realized exams were SO near.
Geog - BAD as USUAL. (Mr Singgam sucks :D)
CM - Microsoft excel, AsknLearn quiz, facebook :D

Went to grandma's place.
Train-ed with WanTing talking about retarded stuff.

that's my day ya'll. awesome? I know. Hahaha. :D

Pfft, gotta stay back for Maths sup. Tomorrow and wednesday.
:X GAH.
It's for my own sake. ):
THANK GOD it's gonna be all over soon.
I can't imagine what the O's are gonna be like.
Yikes. Anyhoo.

I'm gonna go finish up my homework.
and study a bit more before I chill :\
Sighs. Exams. Sigh someore.

Zenda.

Happy birthday little boy

2009-09-26T14:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAVAN!

Went to grandma's house yesterday after school.
(Not like it has anything to do with anything but
I had cramps all the way till 7pm.
It hurt like freaking hell. On with the post.)

Celebrated little cousin's 8th birthday yesterday (:
So grown up already! Felt a little teary eyed.
Hahaha, I still remember him pretending a pillow
was a horse. Hahaha. x]

I finished my lunch, showered and rested
till about 5.30 before my bro, mum and
cousin arrived.
Basically to wrap it all up, cake, donuts,
chocolate ice-cream, nothing less than that.
hahaha.

I only realized that Cavan was wearing the
same t-shirt for his 7th birthday while I
was scrolling through my photos. HAHAHA.

Anyway, before everything, bro and I were
in aunt's room with Cavan just goofing around
and we played the story making game where
each of us took turns to write a sentence, fold the paper,
and weren't allowed to read anything else till
everything was done. So here's the story.
REMINDER : we did not know what the hell
everyone was writing about.
Enjoy (:

(G - bro
B - Cavan
R - me)

Once upon a time, there was a boy

His name was Greg Heffley

He rode a donkey that had one eye

and he died

He was stupid and couldn't even
different shape (differentiate) a bed and a mattress

He jumped off a mountain because there was no chocolate

and he died again

One day he wet his pants and called "Mum, blood
came out of my cuckoo bird"

He ate a cockroach on accident

and the fairy god mother sprinkled fairy dust
over the magic rainbow

His sister said, "a cuckoo bird crawled into his pants!!"
She gave a big laugh

and they lived happily ever after.

Wasn't that an awesome story?
I laughed like crazy when I read it.
So did my brother and my cousin.
Then they went on to draw power rangers
and other stupid stuff. HAHAHAHA (:

Zenda.

Tag replies:

Maddie: Hahah, they were nice (:
To make you drool obviously!

Cheryl: HAHAHA! AGREED
I AM NOT GETTING PRETTIER. you are. (:

Isabelle: Thanks (:

Pamela: hey mei, thanks (:

Amanda: YEAH LOR! Haha, love you too manda.

V: unfortunately... it is V... ):

Josh: hahaha, thanks. I KNOW IT DOES! (:

Jordan: YEAH MAN IT ROCKS. I can't wait to see reactions.
Hi guy who overuses deo.

Shanchih: I know it is, hahah (: but it died T.T

Vernice: Kay, thanks.

Clarabelle: (: Thanks.

Rachel: hahaha. no problem.

Salad 60 x)

2009-09-23T19:05:00.008+08:00

Just me and my guitar.

*

I can't describe to you how packed I am right now.
Yet here I am blogging (: Weird, huh.
Bad day to be busy. I didn't get a single wink of shut-eye
last night. My toe nail, which was already injured,
got knocked on again while I was sleeping, and it
hurt like HELL. I couldn't sleep after that.
Sad. I know.

Been feeling like snoozing the whole day. I will soon.
After all this junk is done. (:

Got pictures for you guys. On monday (hol)
Wan Lin came over to do our Home Econ. project (:

Basically we were supposed to do a
nutritious AND delicious salad for the project.
So here's the end result! >>>

This was taken in home econs. class after
we were graded. Tasted g-OOOOD.
Boiled potatoes with red apples and chopped
up boiled egg whites topped with cheese on
a butterhead, along with sticks of graped and strawberries.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
We finished it in less than 10 minutes.
Took a lot of effort but Wan Lin helped a LOT. (:

*

I take pictures when I'm bored in class, OKAY?!

Let me introduce you to 2 sides of the class.
In the right corner! The 2 snoozers! :D

And in the left corner! The guys
who really overuse deodorant. (:

& in front of me is...

Vanes Tay Ling Li.

HAHAHA.
After school went to Botak Jones with
Vanes and Wen Xin.

[WenXin requested immediate delete of this photo.
It wasn't bad at all.
She's probably just blog shy. HAHA.]

Both of them had fish and chips, I had
a super yummy Caesar salad (:
Then we went to playground beside there
and talked for about an hour before I
headed back home (:

*

Phew... My arms hurt.
My legs hurt.
My eyebrows hurt.
I need some sleep.
I'll reply tags next time! (:

Zenda

freE-BAY

2009-09-19T15:01:00.005+08:00

I am bloated.
& I just consumed about
800 calories.
More than that?
I don't know when I started counting calories
(probably when Home economics started)
but I just started.
Fish and chips + Macs Iced tea.
and a slice of cheese cake.
Sigh sigh sigh.

Stayed back on Friday after
the DeepaRaya ( don't ask) celebration.
Magician named Kyle Ravin came to
CTSS to perform during the celebration.
Have no idea how it links besides the fact
that he's indian. Uh.
He knows how to get people's attention, that's
for sure, but a lot of people figured out some of
his tricks. That's a thumbs down.
Also a lot of dancing and singing. We stayed
in the whole for 2 hours before we were released.
Hahaha. ><

You can only imagine what would be inside the
"Taylor Lautner - first aid kit".

:D Both of us just listened to music and played
with our phone games. Lasted us for about
like... 3 hours. LOL
It was fun (:

Then went out with 'sha for usuals.
Didn't really eat much though :X
We went to buy her handphone pouch,
then popular to buy my stuff,
and after a cheese dog, walked home with
her from yew tee. Super tired after that.

*

'm surfing E-Bay now.
Tons of steals there, recommended to
everyone whose parents have credit
cards. HAHAHA, kidding kidding,
but the stuff there ARE quite cheap
if you search around. (:
'm looking for clothes mostly,
bro wants to buy this duperly cool
chess set for my lil cousin (Who rocks at chess)
for his birthday. x]
E-bay rules. HAHAHA.
gonna continue surfing,
i think I'm gonna get addicted real soon,
and crazy if I don't get the stuff I liked. :X

Zenda.

Replace Replace Replace

2009-09-14T13:49:00.004+08:00

(: Finally got to posting. *Phew*
I thought I'd never do it.

Exams coming up soon. *Sad face*.
Study hard all... Don't postpone it.
LIKE I DO.
Good luck everyone!

No netball for the next 3-4 weeks cos of exams...
._.
Sigh.
Anyways, took some pictures with my phone the
other time.

The shot in the last picture was
by Clarissa (:
Anyways, CT C'div went for carnival
last sat at NIE.
We improved as we progressed on but
last game was a bit off.
They tried REALLY hard though (:
They were good sports, LOL.
Screamed 'till I almost lost my voice. :X

Last Friday went to grandma's condo
for dinner and all. Wienna and cavan (cousins)
came. Haha, hadn't seen them in AGES.
And I mean MONTHS. :X
I went downstairs with them to the playground,
played ping-pong at the clubhouse,
then went to the playground and fought
invisible body guards and pretended that
the slide was a dungeon. (:
Then we went around shooting demons
with our MEGA BLASTERS AND ARMOR.
We've still got our first aunt to kill.
She kidnapped us 'cos she's mean.
Judging by the way we killed her bodyguards,
we can take her down no sweat.

...

Yeah okay. I go a little haywire
when I play these games, but it's
fun. So nostalgic. Can you imagine
I used to do that everyday with them
before dinner?

*

Had english oral today.
Needed to present a presentation
on the topic 'Singapore and Me'.
Mrs Linda Lim graded me.
We needed a proper script and
a powerpoint slide with maximum 5 slides.
HARD.
Anyway, I think I did fairly okay.
Was impressed by some people (:
& Thanks for all the encouragement (:
I was nervous like heck.
Stuttered for 1 or 2 words, but the
rest went quite well. Only thing I'm
worried about is whether I was out of
point. Yikes. That would suck big time.

Tomorrow's Friday ya'll!
No Monday blues next week thanks
to Hari Raya (:
Happy Hari Raya everyone.
Don't know whether that's the way to
say it but, ya know (:
Tomorrow meeting 'sha for usuals
and Monday Wan Lin should be coming
over to test our new recipe for
Home Economics cos tuesday's our test!
Wish me luck guys. x]

Oh and tons of people's birthdays
have past, didn't get a chance to wish
them happy birthday, so to everyone
who just had their birthday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
Matt's birthday is on Saturday.
So sorry I can't make it to Sentosa
with you guys. ):
Happy birthday Matt.

Hope you guys'll be celebrating children's
day with me even though we're
not supposed to anymore T.T Lol.

Alrighties. I'll post
up some other pictures next time (:
BYE.

Zenda.

Heaven knows I've fallen

2009-09-01T20:14:00.005+08:00

meet Moo Moo, my new school companion
Pokky died.

*

HEY fellow computer addicts. (:
Fortunately/Unfortunately I'm not really a computer
addict anymore. Haven't been spending much time
on the computer. Isn't that a shocker? (:

Anyhoos, It's 8.30 pm on a Tuesday which is
actually, as all of you know, TEACHER'S DAY!
Although I don't really give a flying fart in space.
Anymore.
I used to make a big hoo-ha about it.
Cards and presents flying all over. I mean YES,
I still love some of my teachers and APPRECIATE
all they've done for me, but this year just doesn't
have the same PANG as it does last time, but still.
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY (:
I'm sorry I didn't give a gift or visit any of you guys.
I will next year, pinky promise. (:

*

Start with Friday yeap.
Mum didn't want me to go out cos of
my toe (...and it might get infected and it might
hurt and it might need to be injected and it might
eventually be amputated - not joking, and blah blah...)
and Keish' had a headache since morning so
instead of going out like we usually do on Fridays,
she just stayed over and we baked!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Was blowing bubbles before she came over.
Really windy that day.

Ahem. We watched a bit of teevee and then
went downstairs to buy ingredients first.
(Can anyone tell me whats a cream shortener? 0_o)
Then we proceeded (Since when did this become
situational writing?) to mix everything together.
Actually in the beginning it looked all disgusting
cos it was watery with little chunks of who knows what
in it, but when we added the flour and cocoa, it
became much fluffier. Looked like nutella.

It looked much nicer in reality. Swear.

Keisha. LAUGHS.
Don't ask me. I don't really know either. (:

I didn't really bother taking pictures of
the batter 'cos I was too busy sifting flour
really professionally. Ahem ahem.
Cleaned up the kitchen
afterwards (Not really well, I might add)

After all the kitchen chaos, went to watch
a movie in my room. I couldn't stop laughing.
My brother came in and tried to bother us
and I just sat on him and jumped on his butt
and pushed him out, all my weight on the fats
on his stomach. (:
And then he came in again and I gave up so
the 3 of us just sat there laughing at all the weird
people on teevee just 'cos there was nothing
nice on. Slept at 4 in the morn'.

(:

*

Teacher's day performances in CTSS gave
me a completely new perspective of how it should be.
(: Whole of 1a1 (MINUS JING WEI AND JOEL... *grits teeth*)
was wearing class tee. I'll show it to you guys next time.
Performance was extremely entertaining (:

*

): I'm gonna have to sleep in 2 hours.
Sigh. I still haven't taken dinner. And shower.
I know, it makes me sick too.
I'm not allowed to wear shoes for the next 2 weeks.
Yes. Sneakers not allowed also.
Which also means slippers to school for the next
2 weeks. T.T
I want to slit myself. *Slit slit slit*.
I can't even attend netball for the next 2 weeks,
but that doesn't mean I can't GO for netball. HA.
I'll still be there, I'm just not allowed to do anything
that is linked to FEET. Doc' said if I don't listen
to him (THEY HAVE TO BE NAGGY, DON'T THEY?)
it might take a whole year. Ouch right?
I know. ILshoes. ):

Bro' cooked scrambled eggs this morning.
They tasted... weirder than usual. HAHAHA.
My finger tips hurt cos I've been holding the guitar
for a third of today. Trying new songs.
Can't seem to get them completely right, so
I'm just glue-ing myself to the guitar until I do.
And my throat hurts too. 've been singing the
whole day WHILE playing the guitar. So, there.

I'm obsessed with weekends. I'm weirded out by myself.
3 more days everyone! (:
& next week's 1 week holiday for me (:
CHIONG THROUGH THIS WEEK EVERYONE!

Zenda

Flip.

2009-08-24T13:28:00.003+08:00

'm in the com lab. 'm sad.
'm wondering about stuff.
'm shaking my leg crazy.
'm upset that facebook is banned.
'm bored.
'm wishing I could go home.
'm wishing to talk to family.
'm wanting to play rockband.
'm hating school.

Geez.

Zenda.